falling in as quickly as falling out

this song is such an encouragement to me
and the timing couldn't have been more perfect :)

I, sometimes, wonder if I have spilt personality or smth along this line.
One moment, I tell myself that I'm able to accept this.
Afterall, any form of ending leads to a new beginning right?
Letting it go and filling with a joyful heart to face whatever that may come next.
And I know and believe that everything happens for a purpose.
My mission is completed and now it's the time to leave.

But other times, I wake up in the morning and feel like everything is such a dream
From the point of unification to separation.
Can this be real?

Feels like for the past few months,
I've been living a lie.
Since when did I become so immersed and blinded
that I failed to see beyond the lies?
Was I the only one who poured out everything?

I feel like a little doll being played around with.
Gosh mish, since when have you become so dumbed?

Ahh whatever, I can get through this.
It's only a matter of changed hearts and time.

But it's really all over now.

life's like that

It's amazing what I experience in church few days ago.
something that words cannot simply express

I feel soooo refreshed
so postive for once.

hopefully this feeling will last forever
cos there's nothing else that I would ever want.

my exams officially start in a couple of hours time.
and you know what's funny.
I'm SOO NOT READY
but then again, who can ever be ready for an exam?

can't wait for everything to finish.
so I can focus on doing things that make me happy :)

express.

thank you my beloved friends for your concerns :)
im perfectly fine to be honest!

man, i miss high school so much.
miss the days where I can just be so carefree!
chatting at lunch,

laughing all the time,
going crazyyyy,

I wish I could turn the clock backwards
I feel like since uni started I haven't spend much time with my highschool mates :(

hopefully, friendship will be everlasting
even if we don't see each other for a while.

OMOSH can't wait for exams to finish!!
and see my beloved friends again <3

bye world.

I never thought of myself as someone strong.
but neither did I think I was weak.
and now, it just prove me that I, myself, have fallen.
vulnerability is the only word that comes into my mind.

I've given more than I thought I could ever give.
and now, perhaps not so much regrets.
but rather I am disappointed in myself.
my stupidity has caused me much more to bear than I could imagine.

Anw, I believe I need a break from the world.
a break to see what they really mean to me.
and my position in their lives.
a break to allow my restoration and refocus on what's important.

goodbye world.