happybirthday Jesus!

hohoho merry x'mas

Not much X'mas mood!
no x'mas trees, no presents in the sock, no santa claus!
don't u wish that we went back in time and live on that fairytale?
I think my parents think I grew old of the whole santa claus thing

but played monopoly deal the whole night with friends
even when the clock stuck midnight, everyone was too engrossed in winning
we dismiss the whole "merry x'mas" thing 

can't wait for NY though.
It means NEW YEAR!
and that means NEW RESOLUTIONS! :P

night peeps!

Build a bridge and get over it?

easy said.

soo it's been a month and I'm utterly confused than ever.
I wonder why I don't every blog anymore.
I guess it's becos I either don't want my feelings to leaked out
or simply, I don't get How I feel!

I've been in singapore for 5 days
and it's been going okay though I really wanna return back to australia
but I guess it will be a good break for me.
away from everything

so my thoughts will be clearer :)

btw, I finally have internet today! been surving without it.
and amazing it was okay.
until I feel like I totally disconnected from the world; and then I started to worry.

I had a 5 hour nap just then and now I'm sooo stuffed!!
I woke up at 10pm :X and it's only midnight now!

x'mas is coming soon! even though I don't feel any festive mood :/
can't wait for new year though!
a new life awaits...hopefully

and I wanna start blogging again.
even though I say that all the time.
maybe I shld get a new fresh blog and start afresh?

falling in as quickly as falling out

this song is such an encouragement to me
and the timing couldn't have been more perfect :)

I, sometimes, wonder if I have spilt personality or smth along this line.
One moment, I tell myself that I'm able to accept this.
Afterall, any form of ending leads to a new beginning right?
Letting it go and filling with a joyful heart to face whatever that may come next.
And I know and believe that everything happens for a purpose.
My mission is completed and now it's the time to leave.

But other times, I wake up in the morning and feel like everything is such a dream
From the point of unification to separation.
Can this be real?

Feels like for the past few months,
I've been living a lie.
Since when did I become so immersed and blinded
that I failed to see beyond the lies?
Was I the only one who poured out everything?

I feel like a little doll being played around with.
Gosh mish, since when have you become so dumbed?

Ahh whatever, I can get through this.
It's only a matter of changed hearts and time.

But it's really all over now.

life's like that

It's amazing what I experience in church few days ago.
something that words cannot simply express

I feel soooo refreshed
so postive for once.

hopefully this feeling will last forever
cos there's nothing else that I would ever want.

my exams officially start in a couple of hours time.
and you know what's funny.
I'm SOO NOT READY
but then again, who can ever be ready for an exam?

can't wait for everything to finish.
so I can focus on doing things that make me happy :)

express.

thank you my beloved friends for your concerns :)
im perfectly fine to be honest!

man, i miss high school so much.
miss the days where I can just be so carefree!
chatting at lunch,

laughing all the time,
going crazyyyy,

I wish I could turn the clock backwards
I feel like since uni started I haven't spend much time with my highschool mates :(

hopefully, friendship will be everlasting
even if we don't see each other for a while.

OMOSH can't wait for exams to finish!!
and see my beloved friends again <3

bye world.

I never thought of myself as someone strong.
but neither did I think I was weak.
and now, it just prove me that I, myself, have fallen.
vulnerability is the only word that comes into my mind.

I've given more than I thought I could ever give.
and now, perhaps not so much regrets.
but rather I am disappointed in myself.
my stupidity has caused me much more to bear than I could imagine.

Anw, I believe I need a break from the world.
a break to see what they really mean to me.
and my position in their lives.
a break to allow my restoration and refocus on what's important.

goodbye world.

missing my innocences

Currently at monash lib with no intention of studying.
Had a cup of butterscotch latte and my goodness,
the syrup is so full-on, i feel like i m going to have diabetes
and now i m pretty high on my sugar :)

Having a cup of coffee in my hand and reminiscing on the old high school days with J
Hilarious stuff; got to know the real reason why she first hang with me.
the first sleepover, the most embarassing stuff, etc,etc.
literally laughing so hard; my tummy hurts

As we grow older, finding happiness seems to get a bit harder and difficult.
don't you miss those days when you can drop dead laughing at smth that seems so trivial now?

those sincere and innocent smile that can lift up one's spirit.
How i wish we can turn the clock backwards and pause the moment.

Will we be able to survive what adulthood brings to us?
Responsibilities, reality, morality, financial issues seem to be a bombardment of our lives.
Where have those days gone when these issues never even cross our minds?
don't lose heart though; our grandparents and parents gone through it and survive.

But to me, it's not a matter of survival.
It's a matter of living life to its fullest.
I don't wanna live life for the sake of "living"
I wanna be here right now becos I have a purpose to fulfill.

At the end of the days,
I wanna say, "I have know Him, I have love Him, I have obey Him"