comfort zones; don't pull me out of it yet.

so yesh, I do realise that my blog has been pretty empty for this whole year.
if you're wondering where I have been, like a goodfriend would do.
just thought I let you know I haven't died yet :P

I have been facing alot of ups and downs in the past 3months
like a normal person would, I suppose.

and I just feel it's kinda of weird blogging now.
It sometimes feels like I can't write my exact thoughts and feelings.
maybe becos I'm afraid to express my views?
or I feel like I'm answerable to someone?

Oh well, doesn't matter.
cos now I'm just gonna try to push away those thoughts.
and write the normal crap like I always do!

2010 has been a weird year for me.
It's all feels like a dream.
and I still can't believe I haven't woken up from it yet.
I'm living one day at a time, right now
no futures, no hopes. not now, not yet.

I'm too afraid to wake up and face reality.
I feel stagnant. and to a certain extent, I like staying at this moment of time.

Not sure if you have ever felt that way.
feels like you can't move out of any situation you're in.
you know you need to move on, yet you simply can't.
or perhaps you just think that you can't.
or maybe you just don't want to.

anwhoo, it's currently my first time blogging on this red hp netbook which my mum got it for free
It's pretty annoying.
cos the screen is small, making my eyes really tired
and it's really slow, testing my patience
and not to mention the stupid touchpad thing is so sensitive.
I need a mouse, literally.

oh there's smth I haven't test out!
which is the webcam x]

There's a whole loads of things I m meant to do for my "holiday"
and I shall blog about it to remind myself tmr :)
and testing the camera would be first on my list.