This week has been one crazy week for me.
I went to Mt buller for 2 days!
it's great meeting your highschool friends again and going on a short trip :)
getting busy everyday.
and my highlight is attending Empower.
a church conference held at Grace's
It's one of those time when you feel a transformation.
or perhaps, more like a wake up call.
that you haven't been living life straight.
or the way you said you always wanted.
it happens becos so often what we say, we don't preach.
and from the contribution of what the world throws at us.
I rmb struggling alot in highschool
where I couldn't really see the meaning of VCE
the reason why people put such high expectations on it,
deeming it as the only thing that will give you a future.
I was practically torned apart.
but now, my feelings are somewhat a little different,
evolving from the same concept though.
This year, it has been a relatively crazy 1st semester.
Ups and Downs.
especially my emotional state.
so unpredictable
I admit that I haven't been the life this year the way I said I wanted to.
and there's nothing else to say
besides feeling that guilt.
besides disappointing myself.
But then again,
I've gained so much this year.
I learned so many things that I would have never in a lifetime.
I guess ultimately, I learned the meaning of what it means to like someone.
the dire state that we are all in.
and the desire to bring hope to everyone.
and for the past few weeks,
I have struggled with that.
I let all the emotions overwhelm me that I forgot who I really was.
who I really wanted to be.
wasting my time over the silliest thing ever.
but you know what,
it's never too late.
now, the focal of life has been back in perspective.
and I hope I will never lose it again.
I hope I will hold on to this promise.
The first message I receive from the conference was about:
Agape Love
"Agape is love which is of and from God, whose very nature is love itself"
"The essence of agape love is self-sacrifice"
"He loves the unlovable and the unlovely (us!), not because we deserve to be loved, but because it is His nature to do so, and He must be true to His nature and character"
(to read the full article, visit Agapelove)
How wonderful is that?
Do you really understand the meaning of love?
even I don't understand the full meaning of it.
but I'm sure that you will never know the fullest of it till you understand God's love.
His love is the Ultimate.I want to devote myself to love God and love People again.
Big statement. but hopefully achievable.
Sometimes, I wonder where has that old mish been?
