I need to find my way back...

Yay, My comment box is finally working!!
THANKs to MJ =)
who send me my htmlcode in a file called "Mj is pro"
Yesssh, I can't deny that....

Anw, I got songs on my blog too!
Wahah, I like enhancing this lil space of mine

I keep talking about how much I hate school
how much I want everything to end
but now, I'm absolute freaked out

I turned 18
just when I think that I am able to change my life
and have a turning point

nothing changes...

Would this be the same for when I finished VCE?

CRAPPPPP, I NEED TO PREPARE MY FRENCH SACCC!

Drop dead gorgeous chick defines the word "inferiority" for others

Mish is a happy freak cos' she found out the magic trick =OOOO

Whoooo!!! now, all she gotta do is LEARN IT =.=

Anw, Pho's P party was a blast ytd
cos she look frking hot
*jeolousy is overwhelming me*


Muahha, and the magic trick =OO
was nuts..

Forgot my camera ytd becos I was rushing to the movies with my parents
"The taking of Pelham 123"
been waiting for it for more than a month
and wow, it's the first time in Au I watched a movie with my parents =x

Omoshhhh, I spent like 2 hours on the computer to change the layout
BUT, I still can't get the comment thing to work =.=
I NEED HELP, desperately

but anw, what do you think of this new simply layout?

A makeover to mask those hideous scars from the past

What a long day today
Went out with parents for lunch at ChinaBar...
I love the greentea smoothy =]
Went to the glen to see my fave cardigan again
but unfortunately, it was not meant to be mine =(

Then, went to Strike and play pooool
and I can't believe we lose....
then maccas xD
WheeeEeee...
Im tired,really

I have decided that I'm taking a break from the world
and start figuring out what I wanna do in the future
and I wanna new fresh look on my blog

HENCE, I m gonna stay away for at least 3 days...
Soooo, BYEEEEE MISHHHH
CYAAA SOONNN
yesh, everyone say that to me pls

Your eyes; reflection of your past

Ugh. my parents are thinking of returning back to Sg early
for hmm 2 months?
and I'm having this fickle feeling...
I mean, I LOVE SG
but like what am I suppose to do there yeah?

My friends there are probably going to be really really busy
and I probably have to find something to entertain myself...
but what else could I do in Sg?

Hmmm, I wanna take this dec break as a way to increase my knowledge for the real world
I wanna to learn new skills or find a job for my future holidays =) muahahh!
Sooo yeah...should I go back to SG early??


I was onced hurt
and I still carry that hurtful feeling
yet, aren't we all suppose to live on with it?
and perhaps, as we continue with our life
one by one, that burden is dragged down by the hustle and bustle of our life
and new ones arises...

That's the cycle of life
unfortunately or fortunately?

Can't wait for a new fresh start of life...
Can't wait for those ancient burdens to fade away
Yet, fearful of the future ones I have to face
Regardless though, each baggage I carried is the strength
for me to follow on the path that has been set for me...

Fated to love you; but perhaps not fated to be together

Yay, I finished 40 hour famine this morning!!
So I ate as much as I could and talk as much as I could...

I feel so much more relieved
that I am able to face certain things that I never thought I would
with love and confident =)

For the weekend,
I have simply been watching drama all day =)

Thanks to Annie and my cousin who rang me from SG to recommend it...
But anw, I LOVE it!
It's really sad but nice at the same time!


Don't you wish you're main character in those love dramas?
Hmmm, wonder if I ever said this b4 but I always wanted a love story
those really heart rending ones
that could touch anyone who hears that story...

I don't want the whole boring process
where you see each other and "fall in love"
then, get married...
have a child...
have grandchild...
The End

Perhaps, a story where you can never be with the one you love the most...
Sound like a good plot..
realistic endings...

Forgotten, because you don't have a voice

I never knew how difficult it was to not speak verbally...
It has only been like 6 hours and I'm feeling sooo annoyed
I feel like screaming my head off; but I can't =.=
It's the feeling of being trapped and suppressed, I suppose

It made me think how often I viewed people who are different
who has disabilities or financial challenges
How I feel so confused? or hesistant whether to look at them?
or simply ignore them in order to make them feel normal?
I don't know....
but I want to know how they feel

People often take communication for granted
They automatically think that speaking is smth you simply DO
yes it is for most of us...
but for others...it's not neccessary the easiest thing for them
Imagine trying ur hardest to say something
but nothing simply comes out
No one understands you
No one is able to empathize with you
You're simply left behind...
Forgotten, because you don't have a voice

Yet, it's not simply you're mute or anything
but it's the fact that sometimes you're simply ripped from your rights
People who don't live in democratic society like us
doesn't have a say at all
They are being oppressed by high authority
And they don't have a voice to stand up for themselves
nothing is all they have...

Or perhaps, let's look at a smaller scale
You're being isolated by your friends or classmates
and you wanna share your ideas and tell them what you've been doing on the weekends
but nooo,
You're not to be heard

That's feeling is inexplicable

Our world ain't perfect
There're people suffering everyday
And yet here we are, so lucky and blissful to even have an internet to read this pointless blog
When others need to work hard labour with no time to spare...

I feel as if my world has been flipped upside down
inside out
I don't know what has happened lately
It's the people around me whom I'm vv worried
Yet, as a friend..
I feel useless
becos there's really nothing I can offer
nothing I can do to uplift them and stop the things they're doing

I wish I had some power and control over certain things
but unfortunately, I don't...
Sometimes, I don't even have that power to control myself
so how can I even possess that strength to help others?


Man, I seriously don't know w-t-h I writing
I can't think much now
I am food-deprived and definitely SLEEP-deprived...

Losing my voice just so you won't know I'm right here all the while...

Jus came back from Jinali's b'dae =)
didn't bring my cam so unfortunately no photos!
omosh, i have to post up photos from lizzie's last week!!
anw, can't seem to find my camera...
so that's gayy....
If you don't know why I am simply blabbering on
blah blah blahh...

It's becos I feel lonely....
yes, lonely
40 hours of famine
no eating and no talking
It actually only has been 1 hour
but I feel like it has been for yearsss!!
Wow, never knew how hard it was to not speak, really...

Anw, I'm off to watch some dramas
to make me happy and keep me distracted
esp from my dad who keeps pestering me to speak....