I guess it's soo right afterall
I'm a freaking selfish girl when it comes to relationship.
I can't make commitments and fully immersed myself in "love"
if that even exist in the first place.
I think I'm just scared.
Afraid to think what could happen and whether I'll be blinded from it.
or whether things would get out of control.
I don't like taking risks.
I can't afford to put myself in any position that could hurt others too
cos ultimately it would hurt me the most.
And it did.
Life is cruel afterall.
I don't have regrets in life.
but if I could rake up one now and tell you.
It would be missing someone I shouldn't have missed.
I wish I could figure out what do I exactly want
but I can't.
I'm stuck here without a clue.
and I think it still hinders me from moving on.
I don't believe in love
I'm a freaking selfish girl when it comes to relationship.
I can't make commitments and fully immersed myself in "love"
if that even exist in the first place.
I think I'm just scared.
Afraid to think what could happen and whether I'll be blinded from it.
or whether things would get out of control.
I don't like taking risks.
I can't afford to put myself in any position that could hurt others too
cos ultimately it would hurt me the most.
And it did.
Life is cruel afterall.
I don't have regrets in life.
but if I could rake up one now and tell you.
It would be missing someone I shouldn't have missed.
I wish I could figure out what do I exactly want
but I can't.
I'm stuck here without a clue.
and I think it still hinders me from moving on.
I don't believe in love
"One thing’s inevitably for sure at this age- relationships end. Should we live happily yet vulnerable in the moment or suppress these feelings to protect ourselves from the excruciating pain of heartbreak?"
ReplyDeleteYou know, either choice is perfectly fair and people should start to understand that. It doesn't make you selfish, so please don't think in that way! No one really understands love, let alone know what they want. Don't stress so much, "the world is beautiful cos.." hahah! :)