I'm reachin for something I can't touch

turns out that there're alot of things I can't do
alot of things beyond my control

What am I exactly holding on to survive?
Family? friends? Memories?
God?
yesh definitely.

It seems like I have been struggling the past few days
that have resulted in my anti-social behavior

I think I'm finding alot of false security.
and it seems so hard to differentiate them
money, fame, friends, etc

I feel so confused
and it's the same feeling again
I think I know what's right
but at the same time, the world is pushing me to the other end
which way do you go?
or is there a compromise?

Still haven't figure out much yet
but I'm much more relax these days too
I guess spending quality time alone makes me feel happy somehow