while we haven't fell that deep;

It would never cross my mind that I could actually let go of everything just for that one moment.
Sometimes I asked
Is this really me?
Have I really changed?

Just when I thought that maybe this is a fresh start for me
To regain my strength and hope.

then everything starts to fall apart again.
and you start to realise what you've been doing
is nothing but to mask ur past.

so afterall, I'm not ready.
I'm not ready to re-commit myself to this world

I feel like I have really changed.
and I hate this 'me'
weak, naive and ignorant

and from today onwards,
I'm gonna start a new fresh
I should really stop being so blinded by my thoughts

and hopefully, I will be able to stay strong.

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On a lighter note, I have been really busy lately
I met up with quite alot of people
especially two friends from Au
Then, I also went to Korean BBQ and steamboat for C's b'dae
I must say we took a long way there

so anw, we discuss about going to genting over one of the weekends
and hopefully, it would come true =)