ain't easy to overcome

I was looking forward for a change yeah?
so I bought coloured contact lens
but seriously, they freak me out pretty badly.
Omosh, I never knew how hard it was to put contact lens in

I was at the optometry trying on Maxi grey contact lens
and my gosh, I was in there for an hour
becos no matter how hard I tried, I could get it in OR out

soo, the contact lens have been left in the container for more than a week
and I still don't dare to try it again.
Maybe tomo...

But anw, since the contact lens thingy didn't really work out.
I bought hair dye!!
Liese Hair dye which is really easy to use!
All you have to do is just massage into ur hair
Alright, maybe it's not that easy but at least easier than others

Ash brown =)
so I might be trying it tomo.

Please let me have the guts to do so.


I went out with A & Y to watch Edge of Darkness
and I was freaked out in the movie.
Actually, I've been freak out in all the recent movies I have watched
and I think I owe it to paranormal activity
Ever since watching that, my anxiety level has been going up.
damn this.

Lay down a new page

Yay, I finally change my layout!
which one looks better?

xxxx says:

dream onnnnnn

if you're cute

Mish says:

...

xxxx says:

i must be Ken from barbie

Mish says:

ur a BEETCH

alright, what a joke.

So nothing much has been happening right now. Just been really really tired everyday for no good reasons.
Genting trip was pretty good except everyone was pretty much dead but I can't wait to post up pics when A sends them to me. Oh man, I love my friends. They make my every day seem so fun. I wish we have more time to go overseas for holiday. Let's pray and hope that australia trip will work out. I can't wait for cny to come and fortunately valentine falls on that day so great excuse not to be seen like a loner =P
Anw, my subjects in uni are approved but I still have second thoughts as to choosing psych as my breath becos it has 8 contact hours which IS REALLY LONG compared to my 3 commerce subject of 9 hours in all. Man, this is why picking science in uni is no diff from going to highschool 24/7.

I've been snackin so much esp in genting becos there're hell alot of junk like cuttlefish ~yum~
man life is quite unhealthy when you're overseas. oh on a more exciting note, I tried escargots and damn they were pretty yummy (onced you get over the thought that they are actually snails =/ )

off to dinner and fill my empty stomach =)

trippin' over

WooooOooh!
I will be off to genting in aprox 3 hours time!
hopefully the 7 hour bus ride will be safe.

and finally, my friends and I are making a trip again
becos the last time we did...it was 2+ years ago =/

Anw, I have been shopping so much lately!
but it's kinda of bad
becos it means that my $$$ is down

I actually find it pretty annoying that uni doesn't have uniform =.=
I mean it's COOL
but man, the trouble of choosing ur outfit for the day just doesn't seem cool to me

anw, wish me a good trip
and that I make it home safely xDD

breathe the last

yeaaaa yeahhhh,
my blog is officially dead
but I don't plan to revive it anytime soon

I guess the stupid laptop is partly to be blame
becos it takes me ages to do anything
and to make things better,
I forgot my camera cord so uploading any photos is impossible

unless....I get a new cam
which I have been talking for YEARs
but I'm more interested in the idea of a new laptop right now.

What I really want now is most probably is fresh new start.
and that's not going to happen unless I start searching for it.

I can practically blog anything
all my fears and joy.
but at times, reading my blog gives me this weird feeling
becos I don't really want to be reminded of my past posts.

So I'm actually thinking of deleting this blog and maybe get a new start?

Ahh, but I'm not the type that just shut something down either.


Just before I leave,
I wanna say that...

Legion is Awesome!
and Hai Pa Tian Xin is hilarious!

while we haven't fell that deep;

It would never cross my mind that I could actually let go of everything just for that one moment.
Sometimes I asked
Is this really me?
Have I really changed?

Just when I thought that maybe this is a fresh start for me
To regain my strength and hope.

then everything starts to fall apart again.
and you start to realise what you've been doing
is nothing but to mask ur past.

so afterall, I'm not ready.
I'm not ready to re-commit myself to this world

I feel like I have really changed.
and I hate this 'me'
weak, naive and ignorant

and from today onwards,
I'm gonna start a new fresh
I should really stop being so blinded by my thoughts

and hopefully, I will be able to stay strong.

~~~~~~

On a lighter note, I have been really busy lately
I met up with quite alot of people
especially two friends from Au
Then, I also went to Korean BBQ and steamboat for C's b'dae
I must say we took a long way there

so anw, we discuss about going to genting over one of the weekends
and hopefully, it would come true =)

let's throw 2009 behind us for a better year ahead

I haven't really had the time to blog about anything really.
I just been living life the way it is without much thoughts to my future
So now that I have time feeling abit lonely at home

I shall blog about my 2009!
and btw, I read my old post from dec 2008 to jan 2009
and I would like to think that I had hell alot of fun last year when I was in sg!
Where are all my friends damn it.

This year....

I survived VCE
I plan to study my arse off at the start of the year but obviously, my motivation level went down the drain and the only thing when VCE cross my mind was SCREW IT. But turns out vce was pretty alright even though not much effort was put in so I was one lucky bum. Unfortunately no one can be lucky twice so slogging in uni is a must.

I had an awesome group of friends from outside school
thanks to the relationship problems they were facing, our friendship grew as a group and bam, we're one happy family. Perhaps, it was a blessing in disguise.

I lost someone that I thought I would never lose.
I rmb saying I prob can't life without you. But I guess this just shows how much things can change yeah? Alot of things happened and sometimes it seems like I can't fully let it go. But it's just abit too late now.There're just a space inbetween and nothing can ever fill it up again, besides those painful memories.

I found Church
I felt that my spiritual life was renewed once again and I met alot of lovely people there whom I enjoy being with. Though church can be so long, Im glad I learn so much. I rmb going there the day after valentines and I believe so it was for a purpose.

I met you.
and I'm not even sure whether to say it's a blessing or a curse yet.

yet all in all, I m so blessed that my friends are always there for me.
I can be the most annoying and self-deluded girl sometimes but they always never fail to listen
and I thank them for always watching over me, making sure that I don't fall. And if I did, they will reach out for my hands and bring me back to my feet.
I love you peeps.

so my 2009 was pretty cool

what would you say about ur 2009?

When the sun rise for a better day

I arrived safely on Sat
and I went straight to sing K with my cousins xD
There're quite alot of things going on with family events

but somehow, I'm missing Au
which I don't normally do when I m here.

Alot of things have been occupying my mind
and it sucks cos I really can't enjoy myself here.

I feel damn antisocial xD

I shall post up photos very soon
but my dear notebook is very very slow
and it takes forever to upload.

I thought I found it
but it slips right through my fingers again.