Not ready to fall; because I don't trust that someone will b there to catch me

I'm not going to make myself feel this way

I will give it up before I even could.

I've forgotten that feeling of having hope
and putting your feelings into something.
Because you actually start caring.
you know you're bound to be hurt
when the dissappointment fills the empty spaces..

But I guess all these feelings have brought me closer to reality.
the pain has awaken me up from my blinded soul.

Goodbye III by ~drakmin on deviantART

yours truly by ~ntscha on deviantART

tardivement. by *indiae on deviantART

Letters from the unknown

fly into the light. . .. by *light-from-Emirates on deviantART

It brings me to tears now. by =nietuzinka on deviantART

a Letter by ~Alephunky on deviantART

Letter For My Love 4 by ~alikafaythe on deviantART

Ennui by ~zevaazka on deviantART

Nous. by ~kittysyellowjacket on deviantART

Blow by =iKate on deviantART

Love Is by =iKate on deviantART

Hold me for a while by *DoraLovey on deviantART

I wish I didn't snap out of my cbs mood that early.
then this wouldn't have happen.

Quotes. compression of feelings

I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.

E. B. White

Life is a dream for the wise, a game for the fool, a comedy for the rich, a tragedy for the poor.

Sholom Aleichem

Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense.

Helen Rowland

Can't believe I have to listen to freaking relaxing music.

Ahhh, I really want to run away.
hide smwhere.
and close my eyes and feel the peace
perhaps leave for somewhere else
away from what I'm trying to run away from.

sweeet

Sweeet sweet sweet.
Life is too good to stress about anything right?

I love this CBS feeling!
it's making me real happy.
but somehow, I know it wouldn't last!

At least, I'm just living in this moment! :)

love this quote i heard

Don't let someone fall for you
if you're not planning to catch them.
J.gay left last sunday and it's soo sad cos I'm already missing all the fun when he's here
I wonder what's your thoughts on long distance friendship or some sort.

I never realise how it feels to have a friend overseas or waiting for a friend who's overseas
becos I was the one who left sg behind.
but it's amazing becos my friendship with my sg friends actually became stronger.
I hope that's the same for JG.

Today, I hang with jo for the second time of the year lol
and only one word to describe it
awesome.
she's sooo amazing :)

can't wait for holidays to come soon!!

會呼吸的痛;別再為他流淚

Hang out with dooey 3 days ago.
watched BOY - NZ movie at know eurofilms
was pretty cool movie and I actually liked it!
still loving our d&ms over dinner :)


Hangout with J.gay and P.C two days ago
It's so sad J is leaving for america for good.
man, I will miss J ..... for doing my assignments for me :(

Do you ever wonder to yourself
Why do you put yourself through certain situations?
when it's so painful and sad.
when you cry over stupid things?

Then you asked yourself the last question,
"Is this worth it?"

but you will never know the answer.

Charlie teh unicron

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If I gave you 2 choices;

Yes yes yes.
Haven't been blogging again.
and I feel insecure ranting on this blog sometimes.


There're exciting things that are happening
and of course, things that aren't going very well.
But that's life I suppose :)


you know Humans are funny creatures.
They can change really fast.
adapt into a new environment really quickly too.
I'm amazed and I applaud for such ability.
but sometimes I wonder whether it's a good thing?
whether it's for the best.




Imagine this.
You're living a wonderful life.
You have everything you need.
and perhaps you have a gf/bf/or bestf
things are going really smoothly right now.


I guess the best description is that:
you're very happy with your life right nowbut you know that as time goes on though,
things will slowly deteriorate.
your relationship will not last and it will end up really badly.


So today,
I give you 2 choices in life.


you can choose to leave that person
and know that these happiest memories will be what that holds you together.
you will never know the end.
but at least you know you had the greatest beginning.


Or


you can continue to leave things the way they are
and then when things aren't going right,
when you start seeing things at different ends and conflict arises.
perhaps by then, the only thing that will occupy your life
is regrets? or hatred?
that you will never be able to reconcile that relationship forever.






I don't know which choice is for the best.
but they aren't perfect anyway.
If you're smart though
you can tell which side I'm more inclined to.


but that doesn't mean I will choose that route.
It's just sound better.
leaves you to recreate/fantasize the end of your destiny.

The way it has become

I hate this part of life.
I don't even know how I ended up here.
I thought I learned my mistakes.
Yet, I fell so deep again.


I will never forget the happy times we've been through.
how you can make me feel like the happiest person alive.
but we will never be able to withstand hardship nor pain.
Maybe this is how shallow and surface this whole thing has become.


I don't know whether I am capable to survive this blow.