Those memories running through my head is ruining my soul

I didn't have the best day on earth
-besides, the lil tricks in my frees-
nor did I have the best yesterday night on earth

But I guess the best thing today was having maxbrenner with Doo
who has such creative mind, it sometimes scares me xD
but I really liked his ideas
sooo while having cookieshake, we were simply brainstorming on sketchie =)
I like it when people appreciate my ideas
deep down.
so, I will be working on my lil project from now =)

On a gloomy note,
I guess you could say that I'm the most petty person on earth
I love to hold onto grudges
and hate to admit that I'm wrong
I get annoyed and irritated easily
but wouldn't be gutsy enough to tell you what's wrong
because of the "politeness-gene hostage" thingy( i tink that's what Meryl said?)

But sometimes, I can blow up and give you that evil stare
you wish you never met my eyes =)
Or perhaps, my cold attitude could give you shudders

Hehe, yeaaa that's me...

I couldn't sleep ytd nite
soo I went through my old smses
but maybe it wasn't the best idea afterall
I thought of soo many thing
It seems like I m re-living that past
but now in fear and isolation..
perhaps you will never understand
but you hurt me the most
maybe if you knew, you probably even smirk
but it doesn't matter no more,
as long as I know that I am answerable to myself
that I m living a life worth living
and ain't dragging the past down with me

If only memories were pencil smudges on a piece of paper
then, it would be soo easy to erase

Day by day, life is getting more beautiful ain't it...

I seriously don't think anyone really understand me deep down and inside out
besides Him.
He knows my name even before I was born
He knows my hurts and sorrows even before I cry out to Him
He mends a broken heart and heals the wound
He is my Almighty Saviour, Jesus Christ.