It's me; that's the problem

Oh, happy 200th post btw

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I feel so ... annoyed?
I'm not even sure whether that's the right word to describe how I feel at this present moment
Perhaps, the things that happened arnd me really frustrates me ALOT
but deep down, I'm more annoyed at myself
for behaving in such a way that I know it's wrong and stupid
plain stupidity

yet I can't seem to change the way I act
I need a break to do some "reflections"

I need a clear path of what's ahead of me
I need to let go of you
and not let unneccessary things affect me
Then, I might be able to see "how beautiful the world is again" =)

I need a change in myself
this time, for the better

Absolutely love the sermon ytd
one thing the pastor said was

Be a person who cares more about your character rather than reputation

I need to start changing myself from the inside

Somehow, I've got this feeling that I'm sliding back into my old ways
when I simply daydream all the time
dwelling in my problems
living in my own lil world
and refusing to speak

but regardless of what, I still love daydreaming
...and the silent mish, to a certain extent

The start of school
a new beginning again
Hope this time, I'll start striving hard
b4 it's too late to even regret