Bleahz, we're all in this together

Went to Mal + Mel's house just to hangout
played alot of random games
and my gosh, will I miss them when I'm gone =(

It's kinda of sad how everyone will go their seperate ways in uni
but I hope this friendship continue to stay strong
and we'll meet up alot next year

love u girls xoxo
miss jin =P


Went to C's place ytd and we made sushi
but it was terrible
and the thought of eating sushi terribly freaks me out now =(

Oh, and I watched Alvin and the chipmunk ytd!
with J and M =P
and we took sticker photos lol

Also watched Paranormal Activity at T's house.
It was sooooo scaryyy xD
I guess it's the thought that it is based on true story that really freaks me out the most.

and I actually had a heart attack when I was sleeping xD
my gosh


anw, I can't believe what **** said to me:

"The chances of finding a guy who's good looking, has nice shoulders, likes you in return, and has a lot of money, isn't clingy, doesn't put his arm around you, doesn't mind when you go out with a collection of your male friends... is considerably rare"

thanks much?

take a picture

Pics from shoya.



Nate's dog
and it is called baby


This is the pink soccerball I was talking about =D

pretty???

Boxing Day

I spend X'mas in Church ytd
and it was fun cos we had alot of performances.

Then went to T's house to play cards again.
it was loads of fun playing mafia n hamburger
and surprisingly, I did not have to take wasabi cos I didn't lose!

But anw, I do think my dad is serz when he said he's banning me from using the car.
becos I came home late.

oh well!

Anw, went to DFO essendon today
and Dotti had a massive sale
I went to chaddy last week and the skirts were from 30+
and today, it was like 9.95
0,o
how crazy right?

and I bought a pink soccerball
cos it was simply pretty xD

Anw, I shall take photos of my buys

and I really need to pack!
I'm leaving in a weeks time =(

Berry X'mas

MERRY
X'MAS!
...
( '-' )
-(       )-

my demantled and plain snowman =/

Wow, it's x'mas.
and it's the first time I'm spending x'mas in Australia.
and I realise it's nothing much actually.

But I went to aunt's place
and omosh, the food was fabulous.
lobster, prawns, turkey, lamb, etc etc

Anw, have a great day!

what was in your mind?

Omosh, I must be the biggest idiot in the world
I copied the photos from camera and then I unplugged the cam.
and then I realise that I didn't paste the damn photos yet.

I had the coolest photo of nate's dog.
Went to P's house and invented the coolest game ever!
oh btw, I got my Ps 2 days ago
and I drove today alone

I have been coming home late
and my room is in a mess
so I moved to the guest room

and I have to pack tomo
and whilst at it, packed my luguage.

My flight has been moved from 9 jan to 2 jan.
I don't know whether it's a good thing...
cos I will be back for grand mum's b'dae and C's 21st
but I will miss out on M's bdae partay
and I will miss my friends here a hell lot.

but oh well, can't change much now anyway

I have been having rehearsals for x'mas play
and 10 seconds of the play comes from GEE =/

If you're free on x'mas day.
Come to Hosanna Church!
from 5 to 9pm
CYA THERE =)

Doo made me emo

I guess it's soo right afterall

I'm a freaking selfish girl when it comes to relationship.
I can't make commitments and fully immersed myself in "love"
if that even exist in the first place.

I think I'm just scared.
Afraid to think what could happen and whether I'll be blinded from it.
or whether things would get out of control.

I don't like taking risks.
I can't afford to put myself in any position that could hurt others too
cos ultimately it would hurt me the most.

And it did.

Life is cruel afterall.

I don't have regrets in life.
but if I could rake up one now and tell you.
It would be missing someone I shouldn't have missed.

I wish I could figure out what do I exactly want
but I can't.
I'm stuck here without a clue.
and I think it still hinders me from moving on.

I don't believe in love

Someone please save me from falling again

I hate to say this.
But I guess I still miss you.

It might be another phase in my life
that I still miss all the things that once happened

I managed to survive 2009
and 2010 shouldn't be a problem yeah?

It's not like I'm leaving all these with regrets
but I'm not planning to rake up the past
and find out what went wrong
or try to heal the wounds.

Things are better left undone.

We don't hurt those we love; but we did afterall

If you knew it would end up to this day.
Will you still choose that path?

If you knew it would hurt
why did you have to break that trust?

Now, I feel like a walking shadow of my past

Maybe it's really unhealthy to keep reminiscing

Oh well, the past will soon be forgotten.


I really wanted to go to jin's today
and finally meet the girls =(
but I wasn't feeling well so I stayed home and slept through my afternoon.

Cutting the old jeans

WOoohh, I felt like doing something today
soo I got an old jean out
and made it to a demin short =/




Then I used some remnant from the fabric to make a camera pouch!

Nice nice??
Although I know the workmanship is pretty crap xD

last words

if I died today or tomorrow
I just want to tell you

I love you so

ohh vce

I'm friggin tiredd.

Anw, VCE results are finally out today.
the whole nervous breakdown thingy was finally over
which is good.

But somehow, I actually didn't feel nervous that I couldn't sleep ytd night xD
I suppose I was kinda of over the whole commotion thing

I'm satisfied with my results
since I knew how much effort I put in =/
and hmmm the results does not reflected my effort at all.

but anyway, after all these
I can finally say again
That VCE is damn over-rated
and it doesn't really define you.
when uni comes, vce will be forgotten.


oh mann, I really need to upload photos from my camera
and actually take photos xDD

My blog is a boring crap =/

oh well, have never expected it to be any interesting anw!

when life is as good as a colouring book

I think

Life is like a battlefield
you have to find something that's worth fighting for in order to stay alive
or else you're nothing more than a defeated soldier

sooo what exactly am I fighting for?

When I'm dying and I will be =.=
what do I want to be remembered for?



It's unbelievable how time passes so fast.
I remember coming to Au for year 7
and now my highschool life is over

How freaky yeah?

I wonder whether I will still stay in contact with my highschool friends
or my primary school mates
when I'm 30 or when I'm old and wrinkly

I wish I do.

I can't wait to see each of my friends getting married and have their own kids
how exciting!

I want to attend a wedding of someone close.
right now....
or an engagement party would be good too.

hunger strike

I'm hungrrrryyyyy.
I'm craving for sushi!

I had a dream ytd about sushi actually
It was sooo yummy
and I actually can still remember what sushi they were

One of them was like sashimi on rice with a dash of mango on the top
and the other was like shredded seafood stick + tuna with tobiko

alright, I'm quite weird...

My goshh, result is up for uni math I tink?
should I check???
NARHHH...

Latte Art

Woohoo,
I finally organise all inbox and deleted all the facebook spam =)

I feel very organised now.

Just something to share
which I thought was crazily awesome =)

when you know it's them who makes you smile

A,M,P,S came over this morning
and we bake cookies
well...we burnt the first batch =/

then played red ace for a very long time
till we all almost felt asleep xD

Then went dinner to chinabar
and desert at pancake parlour =)

I love today
just hanging out with the girls
and chillin' out

Anw, I'm dead tired
and I might just go sleep now.

who would spare a thought for you?

I feel so sick of the world.
I feel disgusted by it.

I really don't want to listen anymore
and I'm tired of being the one always having to pretend that I'm alright
I'm sick of being being pushed around
only there when you need;
and left aside when you're done.

I need to stop putting hopes on people
and rely solely on myself.

Why do I have to take all the nonsense
and think for others instead

What am I trying to achieve anyway?
To develop love? friendship?

Whatever.
Human are bound to only care for themselves anyway
besides, I'm really nothing to anyone.

Never would have spare a thought for me.

I wish I could figure out myself, sometimes

Anw, I haven't been blogging the past few days because I haven't had the time
but now I do!
even though I'm quite tired

On friday, the girls came over and we practically just lie on my bed chatting for the afternoon
It was great catching up since we hadn't done it for a year =(

On Saturday, went to the city with A
and we took over 300 photos with E's awesome camera.

These are just a few:
(photoshopped by A)



My baby charcoal



I look like a mad woman
pole hugger =/

I shall upload more when A burn me a disc =)

Oh and yesterday, went to TAO's with friends
and then went to T's house and played mafia
Hilarious.
It's good when you have friends >20
who can drive around =/
it was really fun and in the end, came home close to 2+
after talking to S.
so I was dead tired
and it was weird cos I couldn't fall asleep straightaway and stayed up till 4+
and what was even weirder was
I woke up at 7am
then I just lie on my bed dozing on and off till 11 =x

hmmm, scary yeah?
something is wrong with me, seriously
this is my first time feeling like this.

Today, went with J & mj to hakka
and Wheee, I have ponyo now thanks to mj =)

I'm reachin for something I can't touch

turns out that there're alot of things I can't do
alot of things beyond my control

What am I exactly holding on to survive?
Family? friends? Memories?
God?
yesh definitely.

It seems like I have been struggling the past few days
that have resulted in my anti-social behavior

I think I'm finding alot of false security.
and it seems so hard to differentiate them
money, fame, friends, etc

I feel so confused
and it's the same feeling again
I think I know what's right
but at the same time, the world is pushing me to the other end
which way do you go?
or is there a compromise?

Still haven't figure out much yet
but I'm much more relax these days too
I guess spending quality time alone makes me feel happy somehow

when life seems to overwhelm; look into urself

Can you believe it

I started this drama in the morning

and I just finished it =)

Hahah, it's an old drama

and I never wanted to watch it

becos the cover looks really really bad

But, judging by it's front over is so wrong

cos it was a pretty good drama =)

and if you tink the main characters look gross, think again

tis is hot hot lee wan

and this is the main girl who looks really bad at the start.


Although exams are over,
I feel really stress but I don't know why
maybe I don't wanna think about anything
but things just keep clouding my mind

seems like when you finally thought you solve this problem
another problem arises
when would this ever stop?

So sick of it, really
but this time, it feels like I can't avoid it
or bury myself into my fantasy world.

-sigh-
I wish that I stop being so sensitive about the people around me
and look at the positive side instead
gosh, why can't my life be perfect?

am I being really ungrateful with what I have already?
maybe now that there's a slim chance that I can actually have what I want
that I become so greedy

but really, what do I want?
or maybe, what do I need?
cos that need would seem so much easier to accomplish

I want that can't-be-bothered feeling back, i tink
but at the same time, I don't wanna miss out on my chances.

one of those days...

Arghh. my speakers are not working!!!
Just when I wanna watch Momo Love and Liar Game 2

This is annoying me very badly
and I mean very very.

Anw, I met up with A early in the morning to discuss about DC
it was productive and fun =)
hopefully, everything will sort out soon.

and I thought I lost my mobile phone
but it turns out that I left it at home
silly me.

Then I went to dandenongs with my family.
food was good =)

And now, I waiting vv patiently for S to come pick me up.
Wat a won-der-ful day?

understand me inside out, please

I don't really get it why when the new came upon so abruptly
I actually didn't feel anything.
Maybe I was already prepared for such day.
or there're too many things going around in my life that I cbs thinking about you.

Oh well.
I'm glad I can finally move on.

Anwhoo, spend my night with J,K,L,S ytd
becos S promised to shout us dinner when we're done with VCE
ate at sakura house in Knox
was pretty good, I reckon
then hang at K's house to play cards.
we can be sooooo fun sometimes.

It's kinda of funny how they're seniors from glenny
and I only know them recently
the world is weird.
but they're cool, somewhat

and tomo morning shall be a productive morning, hopefully
I want to involve in something creative =)

Where are you?
I miss you and I want you.
though I don't know who you are, yet.

you know me better than no one else

Just this time, I will not avoid the problem
It's amazing.
Thanks for your courage and love

I love you like mad

spagetti tornados n flying meatballs

Alright, I woke up at 4.30am today
to watch the sunrise with J
and he said he will ring me at 4.45am
but in the end, I had to ring him becos he couldn't wake up
wonderful ain't it?
Hahah, but it was soo cloudy you couldn't see the sun =.=

and then we watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatball
Omoshh, sooooo freaking good man!
Love that movie
Hilarious cartoon

Anw, a joyful day passed once again
but I need to catch up on my sleep
like seriously.
I tink I only slept 5 hours ytd nite.

1st year anniversary; there's no taboo when you're single.

Yep, back from WP!

and I shall post up some photos =)

Anw, the special day I was talking about is

I have been single for a year!

WOoohh! good celebration uh huh!

Alright, just think that I'm weird then
but I thought it was wonderful

becos people who usually break up
find another partner
either becos they're too used to the idea of relying someone
and feeling attached
or it might be a rebounce

that's my thoughts anyway
and you don't have to agree.

It does feel good being single actually.
The start is abit hard becos I was getting used to being taken care of
but then, being single means that
you don't have to be accountable for your actions
you don't have to worry about how the other person feels
you don't need to meet expectations
you are able to spend time alone without having to stress about what's the other person doing
and most importantly, your heart is free from chance of being hurt
but every r/nship is bound to give pain anw.

there's no taboo when you're single.

I don't think I will ever been ready to commit anw
I don't like that feeling of being attached
and the whole world deems you as just one couple
I like people to see me as who I am
I like my freedom, afterall.

or maybe cos I haven't found the right one yet yeah?
hahah, when would you ever know that's him tho

In my heart, your presence is always felt

I miss those days

where you just sit beside your bed

and watch the droplets of rain trinkle down the window

so many thoughts go through your mind

but none of them too hurtful to replay

It's simply peace

that inexplicable feeling

it's soo amazing, and indescribable

I wish somedays

I will be able to do that again

Where no one bothers me

Where I'm alone

yet don't feel lonely

becus afterall, you're always with me.

I wish this is what I see every morning outside my window =)

TOMO IS A SPECIAL DAY

Cigarettes; smoke your way through ur pockets

Anw, I have noticed that alot of people smoke now
and it's kinda of getting on my nerves
maybe also becos, I have a really sensitive nose

But anw, there're 2 things that I just wanted to make

1. We should soooo ban smoking outside shopping centres
What's the point of banning smoking in shopping centre when once you walked out of it
You're simply bombarded with it?
How lame right?
 Yes, I do wanna shop in a presence of clean air
but I also want to walk out safely without having to be a victim of a second-hand smoker

2. We should absolutely reduced the price of nicotine patches and have more CHEAP aid to those who wants to quit smoking
I was in Church the other day and my leader told me
that nicotine patches cost more than cigarettes on a weekly basis
=O
how nuts is that?
asif I wanna pay more money Just to Quit smoking

I guess to a certain extent;
cigarettes are another form of any other addictions
like DRAMAs, alcohol, etc etc

but I don't know why
I just hate it =/

It's sooo expensive and it harm your body
won-der-ful ain't it?
paying money to ruin ur health =/

It's a time to celebrate;

Pictures from friday and sat
I don't really take much photos nowsaday
becos I have a shit camera =/
and becos I'm having too much fun that I cbs taking photos

anw, Fii's party was awesome too
good fun!

Finally, I'm done with exams =)
but actually, it doesn't feel like it

I feel more lost and confuse
it's the "after exams syndrome"
where all the things that was bothering you before exams
just suddenly rush back.

Anw, watched New Moon today
I actually really liked this one
it's so sweet.
and tonight, I'm going to fantasize about it.

As much as Jacob is sweeter and cuter
He's more lethal than Edward, I reckon
I rather die or become a vampire than actually being disfigured yeah?

Anwhoo, I'm happy today
not so much that exams are over
but becos I've come to terms with quite alot of things
and I feel like I'm able to slowly let go of things
but very slowly...

I'll be away tomo and be back on thur!!
but I will still be blogging becos I have scheduled my post!! =)
so continue to come on my space!

so wooOoh!
everyone should start "dating" me now
cos I'm gonna be free!
mayb not this week though?
so book fast xD

I need a job
so people, find me one =/