one of those days...

Arghh. my speakers are not working!!!
Just when I wanna watch Momo Love and Liar Game 2

This is annoying me very badly
and I mean very very.

Anw, I met up with A early in the morning to discuss about DC
it was productive and fun =)
hopefully, everything will sort out soon.

and I thought I lost my mobile phone
but it turns out that I left it at home
silly me.

Then I went to dandenongs with my family.
food was good =)

And now, I waiting vv patiently for S to come pick me up.
Wat a won-der-ful day?

understand me inside out, please

I don't really get it why when the new came upon so abruptly
I actually didn't feel anything.
Maybe I was already prepared for such day.
or there're too many things going around in my life that I cbs thinking about you.

Oh well.
I'm glad I can finally move on.

Anwhoo, spend my night with J,K,L,S ytd
becos S promised to shout us dinner when we're done with VCE
ate at sakura house in Knox
was pretty good, I reckon
then hang at K's house to play cards.
we can be sooooo fun sometimes.

It's kinda of funny how they're seniors from glenny
and I only know them recently
the world is weird.
but they're cool, somewhat

and tomo morning shall be a productive morning, hopefully
I want to involve in something creative =)

Where are you?
I miss you and I want you.
though I don't know who you are, yet.

you know me better than no one else

Just this time, I will not avoid the problem
It's amazing.
Thanks for your courage and love

I love you like mad

spagetti tornados n flying meatballs

Alright, I woke up at 4.30am today
to watch the sunrise with J
and he said he will ring me at 4.45am
but in the end, I had to ring him becos he couldn't wake up
wonderful ain't it?
Hahah, but it was soo cloudy you couldn't see the sun =.=

and then we watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatball
Omoshh, sooooo freaking good man!
Love that movie
Hilarious cartoon

Anw, a joyful day passed once again
but I need to catch up on my sleep
like seriously.
I tink I only slept 5 hours ytd nite.

1st year anniversary; there's no taboo when you're single.

Yep, back from WP!

and I shall post up some photos =)

Anw, the special day I was talking about is

I have been single for a year!

WOoohh! good celebration uh huh!

Alright, just think that I'm weird then
but I thought it was wonderful

becos people who usually break up
find another partner
either becos they're too used to the idea of relying someone
and feeling attached
or it might be a rebounce

that's my thoughts anyway
and you don't have to agree.

It does feel good being single actually.
The start is abit hard becos I was getting used to being taken care of
but then, being single means that
you don't have to be accountable for your actions
you don't have to worry about how the other person feels
you don't need to meet expectations
you are able to spend time alone without having to stress about what's the other person doing
and most importantly, your heart is free from chance of being hurt
but every r/nship is bound to give pain anw.

there's no taboo when you're single.

I don't think I will ever been ready to commit anw
I don't like that feeling of being attached
and the whole world deems you as just one couple
I like people to see me as who I am
I like my freedom, afterall.

or maybe cos I haven't found the right one yet yeah?
hahah, when would you ever know that's him tho

In my heart, your presence is always felt

I miss those days

where you just sit beside your bed

and watch the droplets of rain trinkle down the window

so many thoughts go through your mind

but none of them too hurtful to replay

It's simply peace

that inexplicable feeling

it's soo amazing, and indescribable

I wish somedays

I will be able to do that again

Where no one bothers me

Where I'm alone

yet don't feel lonely

becus afterall, you're always with me.

I wish this is what I see every morning outside my window =)

TOMO IS A SPECIAL DAY

Cigarettes; smoke your way through ur pockets

Anw, I have noticed that alot of people smoke now
and it's kinda of getting on my nerves
maybe also becos, I have a really sensitive nose

But anw, there're 2 things that I just wanted to make

1. We should soooo ban smoking outside shopping centres
What's the point of banning smoking in shopping centre when once you walked out of it
You're simply bombarded with it?
How lame right?
 Yes, I do wanna shop in a presence of clean air
but I also want to walk out safely without having to be a victim of a second-hand smoker

2. We should absolutely reduced the price of nicotine patches and have more CHEAP aid to those who wants to quit smoking
I was in Church the other day and my leader told me
that nicotine patches cost more than cigarettes on a weekly basis
=O
how nuts is that?
asif I wanna pay more money Just to Quit smoking

I guess to a certain extent;
cigarettes are another form of any other addictions
like DRAMAs, alcohol, etc etc

but I don't know why
I just hate it =/

It's sooo expensive and it harm your body
won-der-ful ain't it?
paying money to ruin ur health =/

It's a time to celebrate;

Pictures from friday and sat
I don't really take much photos nowsaday
becos I have a shit camera =/
and becos I'm having too much fun that I cbs taking photos

anw, Fii's party was awesome too
good fun!

Finally, I'm done with exams =)
but actually, it doesn't feel like it

I feel more lost and confuse
it's the "after exams syndrome"
where all the things that was bothering you before exams
just suddenly rush back.

Anw, watched New Moon today
I actually really liked this one
it's so sweet.
and tonight, I'm going to fantasize about it.

As much as Jacob is sweeter and cuter
He's more lethal than Edward, I reckon
I rather die or become a vampire than actually being disfigured yeah?

Anwhoo, I'm happy today
not so much that exams are over
but becos I've come to terms with quite alot of things
and I feel like I'm able to slowly let go of things
but very slowly...

I'll be away tomo and be back on thur!!
but I will still be blogging becos I have scheduled my post!! =)
so continue to come on my space!

so wooOoh!
everyone should start "dating" me now
cos I'm gonna be free!
mayb not this week though?
so book fast xD

I need a job
so people, find me one =/

-untitled-

Alright, so I officially deleted the last post
becos when I read it this morning
I was like w-t-h?
I obviously wasn't in the right state of mind

or maybe,
I am actually happier today
Maybe it ain't my problem right?
I keep babbling on and babbling about how I feel so trapped
but then, I received a wake up call ytd
and wow, do I feel like I m free

Anwhoo, I have an exam at 2pm
and I should really do last min studying
=/

oh did I say that word?

WhhheEeee

I just got home

and I m frking tired
Woke up at 6am today to get to uni
and have breakie at maccas =)

then met Aly for shopping
except I didn't get anything cos I don't have any money
=.=
need to find a job

I seriously think I failed today's paper
maybe 20%?
hahahah,
but anw, 1 more to go
and oh, did I hear freedom?

Achuu's part-tay was fun
I tink I went abit mad from today's stress
which made partying even more fun yeah?

oh btw, I hope I didn't scare mj from my driving lol xD
anwhoo, the really really funny jap comedy
I've been watching the serial all of ytd


Need SLEEP right now!

Post photos from A's party tomo xD

What do you do..

Biggest thing I dread
is being put in a difficult situation

Simply because I don't know how I will react
and by then, there won't be time to think about consequences
so whatever I do then will result in something
maybe good or bad?

But I actually never believe any thing good can come out from an impromptu decision
especially when you're like me
and you're really really slow and stupid at the same time 0,o
or maybe I'm saying this,
becos I never have the guts to make any decision in the first place =/

Ahhh, french exam tomo!!
haven't done any french
been so occupied with maths =.=
is that a good thing?
so I start to realise I don't know anything

Cutie pie 2

My new fav man =X
so cute with a hint of manly-ness?
oh, I got no idea what I'm talking about

I feel much awake now
and hopefully, I remain that way
got a busy day coming ahead.

I really wish I didn't have 3 more papers to do
Everyone is practically on holidays
and I still have class everyday =.=
I really wanna catch up with friends
esp those who are leaving for a long holi
and one who is leaving for good =(

I need more time.

10 more days.
it's a celeb for my freedom

Cutie pies

I just saw this in SG newspaper
hahah, isn't it so cute? =)

There so many things happening lately
and I'm so tired
I think I need a break man
I simply can't get a good rest anymore
Too much things on my mind

But on a lighter note,
I have been watching a new drama
-Take of of young lady-
Oh, and there's still hk drama that I recently finish watching
and it was sooo depressing
but love it!

Delight in Food

Just reach home
And I really want to sleep
but at the same time, I wanna finish watching the drama I started ytd
butbut, my dad is playing wii again -.-
probably from the hype of watchin tiger wood playing today

Anwhoo, soooo surfing the net for food can be somehow fun right?

Yummy cakes
Look sooo nice.
I wish I can bake something nice

Extreme awesome bento!

I love sushi and all
but THIS is just too revolting xD
creepy crawly sushi, apparently healthier

 

"larvae" - now this gives me goosebumps.

Let's be strangers by heart

Maybe if I had the guts to do it.
Then today would be such a different day.

So amazing how pride or fear can swallow someone
Opportunities arise, yet we hardly take them
At that specific moment, we're often can't make a decision
leaving it to the last minute and then it's too late

On the other hand, are opportunities created by man?
or by fate?
Who really knows anyway?

The focus is not at that specific moment
becus it would soon be gone and forgotten
but what really stain ur past
is the after "shock"
when you start to realise you were so stupid enough
to lose your chance

Regrets?

For me, I don't know?
Maybe everything still happens for a reason yeah?
Maybe it was meant to be.
Am I foolish to think that it was by fate?
and not by my indecisiveness?

Whatever it is,
Let the past be forgotten.
No point holding to something that actually doesn't exist anymore

Yet everytime your name is being said
That feeling still stings
When would that feeling ever become a stranger to me?

Sleeping beauty or beast?

I tink I serz oversleep xD

I slept for 12 hours + ytd nite

Today, I went home in the afternoon

and I end up falling asleep 0,o

Omoshhh!

So anw, I tink there's a problem

so I checked up on Google.

There are two types of sleep apnea:

Obstructive sleep apnea (OSA): The more common of the two forms of apnea, it is caused by a blockage of the airway, usually when the soft tissue in the back of the throat collapses during sleep.

Central sleep apnea: Unlike OSA, the airway is not blocked but the brain fails to signal the muscles to breathe due to instability in the respiratory control center.


=OOO

omosh, I tink I'm such a worry freak =.=
but I'm genuinely freak out

Exams are BS

I really hate exams.
What makes it worst is I've only done 3 papers and I have 4 to go

I'm not even at the half-way mark YET!!!!!
and everyone is almost done with exams =X

Damn, seems like I'm left behind again...
Psch.

Fit me into ur box, won't ya?

I'm not sure if I'm a tolerant person.
But I tink there's one thing that I absolutely dislike.
When people hold something that's against me and threaten me.
Maybe.

I guess I dun like the idea of being accountable to someone.

Or when people have expectations fo you.

I mean it's good that people actually have expectations
becos it show that they have high regards for you yeah?

but why should we force or pressure ourselves to fit in the lil criteria they have for us?
It's my life right?
I'm some kind of robot toy that has to take instructions.
and used for others' pleasure yeah?

Anw, I dun even noe why I came to this topic xD

So weird huh?

I really wanna change my flight back to Sg
make it earlier
so I can avoid the freaking hot weather
and be there for my friend's 21st!
but I'm not sure...
Still pending...

No more goodbyes; everything has parted

Camwhore with J makes you feel inferior especially when you look down there 0,o

I'm glad I have a week and a bit till my next exam!!

So I decided to relax and watch Momo Love =)

This drama is pretty new cos' there are only 3 episodes out

I absolutely hate waiting for drama! I like to watch them straight in a row

Anwhooo, I haven't gave much thoughts to the "future" yet

I wonder how it would be like even after my exams

I just wanna chill and catch up with friends

or maybe go on an adventure huh?

I guess afterall, I'm pretty satisfied with what I have now

I mean there's nothing more I can ask for

or complain with the things I have already

Whatever that cause this year to end the way it has, has its reasons

and there's no point in dwelling over it

Maybe there're some things which I haven't gotten over fully yet...

But at least it doesn't bother me now

so, it's best that I don't face it

I'm in this phase now where I cbs thinking so much

My notion is that when situations arise, you simply have to go with ur gut feeling

and do whatever you need to do.

so there're no point worrying about what to do.

It's like someone pushing you in the deep sea

and you can't swim.

You can either struggle for your life or you can drown

one way or the other

It sounds abit barbaric

but at least you don't have to fear whether you will be thrown in the sea one day

I hardly think anyone gets me here

cos I hardly understand myself too

I just blabbling on and on

till tomorrow comes...

Sometimes, people think what's best for you may be the worst for you

Or maybe there's not even a single conclusion to whether this way is right or wrong

simply depends on the people involved yeah?

Who knows exactly what is right anyway?

Do you?

cos' I don't...

Maybe it's best we leave it buried forever and forever

It could be the best solution to our pain?

cos' if I ever had to face the same crap again

I can't imagine what I will not do.

or whether I will be able to recover my equilibrium again