Hide and peek; to find out he ain't looking for you at all

Seriously, the internet is sooo slow
it takes like 5 whole minutes to load a page
so annoying...

The day went kinda crap for some stupid reasons
I guess it was my reactions towards certain things...
I should stop wishing things go my way
becos it just going to make me more upset

Why bother?
Things change anyway
so perhaps I should just accept that fact
You can't control it
No matter how much we say things will go alright next year
that we will still be together and all
It's not...
Just take a good look at us now...

But wateva, it's a part of life
and I don't care anymore...

Had my first debate of the year ytd;
and somehow I found myself talking about Judgement
there's no doubt that we all judge others
We look at their appearances, the kind of clothes they wear, the people they hang out with ,etc
and that kinda settles into our mind the type of person they are
Or when we get to know them, we get irritated by the things they do

We're quick to criticise
I mean everyone has flaws
and I admit that I do have ALOT
and I just hope that people do not distance themselves from me
just because of my shortcomings

Let's accept the fact that I'm not perfect
and let's face it, you aren't perfect either
so why don't we try to look at ourselves first
I sincerely want to stop makin inappropriate comments abt others
so if I do, pls tell me nicely

I personally feel that people behave the way they are for a particular reason
It's not like we've been like this since birth
Our past plays a major role in who we are today
but let's not go into details...
you know it best

What's a random and wierd post I have today
=.=

You might think I'm weirdER
cos I wrote a letter to myself for my 18th b'dae
yeah, how weird
even I thot I was crazy for a while
but this letter is a reminder to me
and I shared it with you when I turn 18

I was gonna upload photos of my 2 early b'dae presents 0.o
but noooo, stupid com xD
so another time!

Anw, there're 2 things in particular that made me happy today
I met up with J; which was crazy cos I haven't seen her for like more than 6 mths
It's not everyday that you meet a friend whom you click straight-away
esp for me, b/c I'm the type who needs to warm up to ppl first
If you know me well; I'm really really shy and being my closefriend takes a while

and besides, J is one friend that I truly admire
To me, she's really upright and nice
She doesn't pretend or really care what society thinks
She just love being herself
and that's all it matters

and finally, dinner at Hakka was super good =)

breathe while you still can...

Woke up in the morning
feeling like there were stones in my throat
and then, my temp shot up to 38.1
which totalli freak me out
cos I was alone at home

Anw, it has been a while since I actually fell sick
I haven't had a fever for as long as I can rmb

But when I was young, I always fell sick
b/c of my tonsils =X
I rmb once when I refused to take my medication (it taste sooo gross)
my mum and maid held me back
while my sis stuff antibiotics into my mouth
I swear that was an assault xD
but good old days =.=

Feeling freakin cold on the outside while you burn in the inside
ain't such a good feeling xD
But anw, I got a day off school
so that was cool =)

Anw, I broke my promise that I won't watch boybeforeflowers =.=


Shattered heart; but at least now, I know that I'm nothing to you

Good shoes bring you to good places

I have a sorethroat
and it's killing me
I'm feeling really warm inside
but I don't think I have a fever

Just this morning, I told D to pass me her sickness
jokingly, so I won't have to do my SACsss
but now, I really regret it xD


I want HEELS

especially the top right and bottom left

Goodness me =)
but I'm trying find full-on laced up
that is shiny
~think I saw it in forever21~

Let's just say, If only I'm rich


I don't wanna walk beside you
and know that your heart belongs to someone else
It's best I slip away b4 it hurts too much to let go

stress.stress.stress

Arghh, I'm not even prepared for my 3 Sacs this week!!!
won-der-ful

I want exams to be over NOW

When was the last time you said you love me?

I finally know what I'm lacking
and what I need the most
that's you

I need to let go alot of things right now...
Let's pry all the things out of my hand and give it all to you; Goodbye world

I'm going to have a Boysb4flower marathon AFTER exams
so I'm officially banning myself from korean dramas
b/c they make me fantasize too much

How can I deserve to be loved
when I don't even love?

What's the point of trying?

Ahh, taking nap makes me feel more peaceful
I feel so annoyed with the world
and I feel like breaking it away from my life
No matter how many things annoy the crap out of me,
I try to suppress it and slip away silently
but don't push it too far
For now, I just want to be left alone
I don't want to listen
I don't want to speak
I don't want to try anymore
WAteva! Life sucks. ughh

Anw, went to theGlen with mum to buy BoybeforeFlowers
and now, she is stuck to the TV =.=
thanks god, dad is at golf...

And why why why? every outcome has its story...

It's 6.30am in the morning
and I'm in my guest room using the laptop
and why?
let's flashback to ytd

My own computer died on me becus it got infected with some stupid virus
then, the keyboard of my dad's com doesn't work properly
and to make things worst, I can't even watch drama to make myself happy
b/c the download limits are almost up
and my dad banned me from using his com to watch BoyBeforeFlowers
and why?
1. He hates korean love drama
2. My mum got hooked on it too, hence he was stuck alone for a while

there're almost only 3 things I would do when I get frustrated
watch drama, sleep or eat!
So anw, I decided to go to bed very very early ytd

Ohh, the good thing abt ytd was attending At the Pole
which was abit awkward at the start b/c it was in the school
but it was wonderful to see Christians in the school
worshipping God and supporting one another, regardless where...


School has been great so far
but to be honest, I feel abit lost
I'm getting confused with who I am
Idk, but I feel like I changed alot
and act differently with different people
anw, I'm starting to really really
hate the things I do...
Someone pls tell me who I am?

I wish I could listen to your heart
and know where I'm placed...

limos&partybus

I got this feeling that J would want this limo to drive us to the formal XD
yea, darn right...

http://www.totaltravel.com.au/link.asp?fid=1065622
anw, I thought this website was pretty alright!

Actually, I am more up for party buses =)

Anw, the SAC was like w-t-h
stuff up so bad; wasn't even discussing abt the prompt >.<


but I'm happy you were there

Falling way back into love...

I'm currently living in my lil fantasy world with a guy like leeminho/yanchengxu
and it making me darn happy!
Anw, trying not to watch the drama too quickly
cos I wanna savour it =P

alrite, how sad can I be?

anw, the formal is on 24th June, they say?
and we have only 90 days of school day left before final exams!
can't wait. can't wait!!

Alrite, I shouldn't be thinkin abt all these right now
cos mid-exams are in 3 weeks =O

got Eng Sac tomo 0.O
~panic~
and Chem Sac on Thur
~panic~

Anw, I think I'm falling back into love again =)
wait, is that a good thing??

Yan Cheng Xu VS Lee Min Ho ; someone please remind me to breathe

I had such a long day ytd...
I drove to the city with my dad
It was traumatising, yet a good experience
but I had to give up when I reached the city
becos we both didn't know where to go xD

Anw, took the train bk to N's place and off we went to H's party =)
His house is massive! well, compared to mine =.=
but anw, had loads of fun playing cards with ppl
Food was good
People were extremely nice
Met a new friend
except, Halo ain't my thing

After party, met up with B and P at GJ
Had a intensive discussion
and I meant intense intense
which I shall share some other time...

Now, I dedicating the space for main casts of Boy Before Flowers/ Meteor Garden =)

3 words:
He is HOT

I rmb being in year 6 going nuts over Meteor Garden!
and idolising Yan Cheng Xu
(I shall show you my mini collection one day)

Anw, I started watching the korean version; it is good too
bring back ALOT of memories
and it's way way better than Hana Yori Dango =.=
which I absolutely have no comments abt..
esp the main guy
I just felt that
Matsumoto Jun simply didn't have that charisma to be DaoMingShi/Domyoji Tsukasa/Goo Joon Pyo

Anw, I'm starting to really like leeminho
but I feel that I'm betraying my yanchengxu -sigh-

BUT, you gotta admit they do look alike!

Lee Min Ho

Yan Cheng Xu

There is only 1 thing in this world that will not change...

Oh wait, I forgot to say I had Japanese for dinner with my parents =)
YUMM
GREEN TEA ICE CREAM!

and Chiroprac was soo good


............... says:
charlieeeeeee
................ says:
stupid horse
................ says:
cant believe it is youtube top viewed clips

ROFL, I tink he sleeps at nite hearing my annoying voice

I can't see what lies ahead; but trust it to be good

Anw, slept really early ytd
b/c I felt kinda of vexed
and when I feel troubled, I can't get anything done
so why laid my hands upon anything?

Had a weird dream concerning my problem...
and I swear it felt so real xD
In the end, I slept for 11 hours straight
The day started off kinda crap
and I got irritated easily
To make things better, I forgotten my friend's present

so I had to run home during lunch to get it

but anw, things got better
How can you not be happy when you're surrounded with friends?

Lately, I've seen so many...hmmm, miracles?
It feels really real
and sometimes, I wanna defy it
but yet, I wanna obey it
-sigh-
what's a inner conflict eh?

Anw, I don't really wanna share it out here
maybe, I shld make a private blog like A...

Dunno why, but every time something crap happens here in Aus
It makes me miss my friends in sg MORE



Stuff the swine flu; he's sizzling hot
Let's make ZAC mask a fashion statement!
This should put all other Zac's fans to shame
-cough-

Your YES is bigger than my NO
Let me see your way

Baby, are you afraid to fall in love with her?

This week passed so FAST!
but nothing much have been happening lately
The same old things which continue to put a smile on my face

Been snackin alot lately,
G brought pods & nachos today
and my mum actually brought tim tams
(you noe how fattening tim tams are?)
but they taste frickin good

Why are all yummy and addictive food unhealthy?
and almost all the healthy food taste like crap?

Anw, J booked WP at the end of the year already!!
I can't wait to suntan, drown in the sea n climb massive hills with the girls
and thank god that my math exams does not clash =)

I guess the place you go for a holiday does not really matters
most importantly, it's the friends you go with...

Anw, tis blog is getting boring than ever...
I can't help it if no one agitates me =)
have you realise that I haven't been angry for a while?

I trust in you
everything happens is for a reason

Wannabe

Stayed back with the Arts students today
and it makes me feel really inferior
cos I wanna be talented like them
so anw, found some random pictures to compensate for =)


vintage by StannLeigh by ~rolaCORE on deviantART


camera camera camera by ~gnar-sdsd-sxe on deviantART

I want a polariod

with camera. by *julkusiowa on deviantART
or a vintage camera =DDD


'Beautiful' 1 by ~blackvarius on deviantART

Man-in-Charge

Since I finished watching the other drama
I'm starting on this new one now!!
and that's because J said that he was acting as a calefare in this drama
so I will try my hardest to spot him

Don't worry, life ain't over for you and me yet

How hot is this! J made it and used it as her blog image
darn it!! cos i want it so badly =)

Anw, I just finished watching this drama
and omosh, almost everyone dies in the end!!
oh well, it's still good anw


Msays:
i'm bad
Mish says:
WHY
Mish says:
what happen?
M says:
got kicked out of school

eik, and guess what it's for?
=.=

but oh well, I'm glad to know he's alrite
I just hope he starts working hard now

LALAALA~
sms from A totally made my day =)

Life's good, they say?

Nothing seems to be provoking my thoughts lately...
Oh wait, there is one....
after Church on Sat...

Being year 12 just seems to be like a dream
I brought all my hopes and desires into this new year
but thing hasn't been going my way
I lost motivation to study but most importantly,
my perspective towards studies has changed
I felt that year 12 is over-rated
and yes, to a certain extent, it's and has been for the past numerous years
and up to till now, I still do believe that people put way too much importance in it
why should your life be determined by some crappy cert?
because of society, everyone has come to believe that if they did crap for VCE
their lives would be over and it's the end of it (maybe not till death or anything)
because of the fear instilled in us, everyone strives their hardest
(I'm not saying this is bad, infact, it's good) but everyone starts competing with each other
and I'm not afraid to say that I do too
What's an ugly world we have to face at year 12 already?
ANW, now for the happy stuff...
So, I haven't been putting any effort into my studies at all
I bring this can't-be-bothered feeling to school all the time
but after sat, this statement "You should bloom where you're planted"
really hit me...
I guess I can't do much in my life now
besides being a year 12 student
soo, the only thing I can do is do my very best for VCE yeah?

=)
Hope this post be a reminder for me to put my focus on right things

don't KID me!, I was once young...

Got loads of photos to upload!! =)
Anw, excuse me for not being able to blog ytd...
I was out the whole of yesterday and today
Ytd, had church the whole afternoon and then KIDS party!
You got no idea, but church was really good!
learnt sooo much from joseph's life
Had an awesome time with the girls
dressing and acting like kids
playing truth and dares
but of course, we're missing Anais :)

Today, met aly and the rest of the girls
she just turned 18th =X
then went to church

Btw, did u notice this Ad?
<===== first ad on my blog =O
so check it out!
I thot it was good 4 me next year wen I move out...
anw, especially good for you who wants to organise ur money
that's if you actually have money....

The camera got so crap, we decided to take sticker photos =.=

this photo cracks me up

Totalli gangsta =.=

DO U WISH U HAVE BODY LIKE THAT??

Meet Charlie the unicorn!!
with wings xD

sizzling hot

I just found another fave =D
just after dennisO!

And how can u NOT say he's hot?

Hmmm, anw I'm soo random
and my blog is weird according to M
so stuff him! =)

Friends or Foes

Shrek at the Glen xD
it was really sad tho
cos M and I saw Shrek at the backstage
having breathing difficulties
and everyone was fanning him >.<

For the past few days,
I either got ditched, hit, pushed, or insulted
Alright, lemme give you some instances...

1. H chucked chocolates at my head
2. H and S totally ditch me and tink that I do not exist at all
3. J innocently thinks I weigh 45kg 0.O
which is a total insult b/c I weigh XX kg more than that
4. H says I smell like a fish
5. J starts bagging abt my ridiculously cool soccer skills
where I can hit the ball in my own face
(my nose still hurts okay!)
6. B and C pushes me all the time and I even trip once
7. C hit me on my wrist
and my veins were popping out

There's still LOADS more
and I can go on forever...
but I shall go reflect on why this happens
and obviously, people will start saying:
"Mish, I tink you need to treat people better..
like the way you wanna be treated"
~Oppps~


But anw, let me say this
I love all my friends =)

Oh, and get ready for pictures tomo or the day after
b/c we're organising a girl's outing!
WoooOh!

Anw, What should I put on my jumper?
Random ones that people has suggested:

1. Tham and Cheese 0.O
(how lame can J be)
2. Mish' Match
(copycat M)

hmm, I shall spend my time tinking of names now!

Let's fly away, and settle in a new place where no one knows

Looking through old photos
makes me really miss Hk trip
and most importantly, the people I went with

Up till now, I can still hardly believe
that I went overseas with my friends
without any adults

How cool isit when your only 16 in a foreign country
and you get all the freedom you want
cos no one is ring you every min after midnite telling u to get home
or nag at you at all
You get to chat, play, eat, sleep, shop, drink and watsoever
but Hk is indeed a place just to SHOPSHOPSHOP n EATEATEAT

I'M IN NEED OF A HOLIDAY

GG

Had soccer today
It was pretty good
besides the fact that I hit the ball in my own face xD
(dun ask me how that works)
and the disgusting bruise on my leg
Oh, and my toes...
(but I can't say anything cos Mel's was actually bleeding)

Oh well, I suck at that game
But what more can I ask?
I MISSED 2 period of FRENCH!
so hurray!!
and isit true that chem sac got postphone?
cos then, I'll be the happiest person alive

Anw, off to shower
I feel really gross >.<

That's what they say, but I beg to differ

I just came home and I'm soooooooo TIRED XD
SErz dunno how time passes so quickly
and my weekend was boring
didn't do much thing besides popping some panadols and going to sleep

But ooh, did I mention that my Dad bought Wii Fit for my mum?
hmmm, I wonder what he is hinting...

yeah, life can be boring
but not when you have dramas to watch
I'm up to ep73 =)

Study for CHEM SAC!!!
and do french essay

I think this is all I have for this week!

HBD mum

Alrite, I shall actually blog today xD
I've been feeling really lazy these past few days

I shall start from ytd!
Met up with F after school to pass him his ID card
which I had it for like weeks already xD
then help J after school
ooh, and I went to the dentist ytd!

I serz dread going to the dentist
was like pinching myself the whole time
in order to shift the pain
how weird...

Alrite, then went to Church with J
and hang out with B,C,P
was random but pretty cool

Ohhh, It's my mum's b'dae today =)
and now we planning to leave for dinner now!
Yum yum...

(P.S It's H's b'dae too and omosh, he acts like a 10 yrs old kid)

Don't look back...

the 1st of May by =armene on deviantART