Bleahz, we're all in this together

Went to Mal + Mel's house just to hangout
played alot of random games
and my gosh, will I miss them when I'm gone =(

It's kinda of sad how everyone will go their seperate ways in uni
but I hope this friendship continue to stay strong
and we'll meet up alot next year

love u girls xoxo
miss jin =P


Went to C's place ytd and we made sushi
but it was terrible
and the thought of eating sushi terribly freaks me out now =(

Oh, and I watched Alvin and the chipmunk ytd!
with J and M =P
and we took sticker photos lol

Also watched Paranormal Activity at T's house.
It was sooooo scaryyy xD
I guess it's the thought that it is based on true story that really freaks me out the most.

and I actually had a heart attack when I was sleeping xD
my gosh


anw, I can't believe what **** said to me:

"The chances of finding a guy who's good looking, has nice shoulders, likes you in return, and has a lot of money, isn't clingy, doesn't put his arm around you, doesn't mind when you go out with a collection of your male friends... is considerably rare"

thanks much?

take a picture

Pics from shoya.



Nate's dog
and it is called baby


This is the pink soccerball I was talking about =D

pretty???

Boxing Day

I spend X'mas in Church ytd
and it was fun cos we had alot of performances.

Then went to T's house to play cards again.
it was loads of fun playing mafia n hamburger
and surprisingly, I did not have to take wasabi cos I didn't lose!

But anw, I do think my dad is serz when he said he's banning me from using the car.
becos I came home late.

oh well!

Anw, went to DFO essendon today
and Dotti had a massive sale
I went to chaddy last week and the skirts were from 30+
and today, it was like 9.95
0,o
how crazy right?

and I bought a pink soccerball
cos it was simply pretty xD

Anw, I shall take photos of my buys

and I really need to pack!
I'm leaving in a weeks time =(

Berry X'mas

MERRY
X'MAS!
...
( '-' )
-(       )-

my demantled and plain snowman =/

Wow, it's x'mas.
and it's the first time I'm spending x'mas in Australia.
and I realise it's nothing much actually.

But I went to aunt's place
and omosh, the food was fabulous.
lobster, prawns, turkey, lamb, etc etc

Anw, have a great day!

what was in your mind?

Omosh, I must be the biggest idiot in the world
I copied the photos from camera and then I unplugged the cam.
and then I realise that I didn't paste the damn photos yet.

I had the coolest photo of nate's dog.
Went to P's house and invented the coolest game ever!
oh btw, I got my Ps 2 days ago
and I drove today alone

I have been coming home late
and my room is in a mess
so I moved to the guest room

and I have to pack tomo
and whilst at it, packed my luguage.

My flight has been moved from 9 jan to 2 jan.
I don't know whether it's a good thing...
cos I will be back for grand mum's b'dae and C's 21st
but I will miss out on M's bdae partay
and I will miss my friends here a hell lot.

but oh well, can't change much now anyway

I have been having rehearsals for x'mas play
and 10 seconds of the play comes from GEE =/

If you're free on x'mas day.
Come to Hosanna Church!
from 5 to 9pm
CYA THERE =)

Doo made me emo

I guess it's soo right afterall

I'm a freaking selfish girl when it comes to relationship.
I can't make commitments and fully immersed myself in "love"
if that even exist in the first place.

I think I'm just scared.
Afraid to think what could happen and whether I'll be blinded from it.
or whether things would get out of control.

I don't like taking risks.
I can't afford to put myself in any position that could hurt others too
cos ultimately it would hurt me the most.

And it did.

Life is cruel afterall.

I don't have regrets in life.
but if I could rake up one now and tell you.
It would be missing someone I shouldn't have missed.

I wish I could figure out what do I exactly want
but I can't.
I'm stuck here without a clue.
and I think it still hinders me from moving on.

I don't believe in love

Someone please save me from falling again

I hate to say this.
But I guess I still miss you.

It might be another phase in my life
that I still miss all the things that once happened

I managed to survive 2009
and 2010 shouldn't be a problem yeah?

It's not like I'm leaving all these with regrets
but I'm not planning to rake up the past
and find out what went wrong
or try to heal the wounds.

Things are better left undone.

We don't hurt those we love; but we did afterall

If you knew it would end up to this day.
Will you still choose that path?

If you knew it would hurt
why did you have to break that trust?

Now, I feel like a walking shadow of my past

Maybe it's really unhealthy to keep reminiscing

Oh well, the past will soon be forgotten.


I really wanted to go to jin's today
and finally meet the girls =(
but I wasn't feeling well so I stayed home and slept through my afternoon.

Cutting the old jeans

WOoohh, I felt like doing something today
soo I got an old jean out
and made it to a demin short =/




Then I used some remnant from the fabric to make a camera pouch!

Nice nice??
Although I know the workmanship is pretty crap xD

last words

if I died today or tomorrow
I just want to tell you

I love you so

ohh vce

I'm friggin tiredd.

Anw, VCE results are finally out today.
the whole nervous breakdown thingy was finally over
which is good.

But somehow, I actually didn't feel nervous that I couldn't sleep ytd night xD
I suppose I was kinda of over the whole commotion thing

I'm satisfied with my results
since I knew how much effort I put in =/
and hmmm the results does not reflected my effort at all.

but anyway, after all these
I can finally say again
That VCE is damn over-rated
and it doesn't really define you.
when uni comes, vce will be forgotten.


oh mann, I really need to upload photos from my camera
and actually take photos xDD

My blog is a boring crap =/

oh well, have never expected it to be any interesting anw!

when life is as good as a colouring book

I think

Life is like a battlefield
you have to find something that's worth fighting for in order to stay alive
or else you're nothing more than a defeated soldier

sooo what exactly am I fighting for?

When I'm dying and I will be =.=
what do I want to be remembered for?



It's unbelievable how time passes so fast.
I remember coming to Au for year 7
and now my highschool life is over

How freaky yeah?

I wonder whether I will still stay in contact with my highschool friends
or my primary school mates
when I'm 30 or when I'm old and wrinkly

I wish I do.

I can't wait to see each of my friends getting married and have their own kids
how exciting!

I want to attend a wedding of someone close.
right now....
or an engagement party would be good too.

hunger strike

I'm hungrrrryyyyy.
I'm craving for sushi!

I had a dream ytd about sushi actually
It was sooo yummy
and I actually can still remember what sushi they were

One of them was like sashimi on rice with a dash of mango on the top
and the other was like shredded seafood stick + tuna with tobiko

alright, I'm quite weird...

My goshh, result is up for uni math I tink?
should I check???
NARHHH...

Latte Art

Woohoo,
I finally organise all inbox and deleted all the facebook spam =)

I feel very organised now.

Just something to share
which I thought was crazily awesome =)

when you know it's them who makes you smile

A,M,P,S came over this morning
and we bake cookies
well...we burnt the first batch =/

then played red ace for a very long time
till we all almost felt asleep xD

Then went dinner to chinabar
and desert at pancake parlour =)

I love today
just hanging out with the girls
and chillin' out

Anw, I'm dead tired
and I might just go sleep now.

who would spare a thought for you?

I feel so sick of the world.
I feel disgusted by it.

I really don't want to listen anymore
and I'm tired of being the one always having to pretend that I'm alright
I'm sick of being being pushed around
only there when you need;
and left aside when you're done.

I need to stop putting hopes on people
and rely solely on myself.

Why do I have to take all the nonsense
and think for others instead

What am I trying to achieve anyway?
To develop love? friendship?

Whatever.
Human are bound to only care for themselves anyway
besides, I'm really nothing to anyone.

Never would have spare a thought for me.

I wish I could figure out myself, sometimes

Anw, I haven't been blogging the past few days because I haven't had the time
but now I do!
even though I'm quite tired

On friday, the girls came over and we practically just lie on my bed chatting for the afternoon
It was great catching up since we hadn't done it for a year =(

On Saturday, went to the city with A
and we took over 300 photos with E's awesome camera.

These are just a few:
(photoshopped by A)



My baby charcoal



I look like a mad woman
pole hugger =/

I shall upload more when A burn me a disc =)

Oh and yesterday, went to TAO's with friends
and then went to T's house and played mafia
Hilarious.
It's good when you have friends >20
who can drive around =/
it was really fun and in the end, came home close to 2+
after talking to S.
so I was dead tired
and it was weird cos I couldn't fall asleep straightaway and stayed up till 4+
and what was even weirder was
I woke up at 7am
then I just lie on my bed dozing on and off till 11 =x

hmmm, scary yeah?
something is wrong with me, seriously
this is my first time feeling like this.

Today, went with J & mj to hakka
and Wheee, I have ponyo now thanks to mj =)

I'm reachin for something I can't touch

turns out that there're alot of things I can't do
alot of things beyond my control

What am I exactly holding on to survive?
Family? friends? Memories?
God?
yesh definitely.

It seems like I have been struggling the past few days
that have resulted in my anti-social behavior

I think I'm finding alot of false security.
and it seems so hard to differentiate them
money, fame, friends, etc

I feel so confused
and it's the same feeling again
I think I know what's right
but at the same time, the world is pushing me to the other end
which way do you go?
or is there a compromise?

Still haven't figure out much yet
but I'm much more relax these days too
I guess spending quality time alone makes me feel happy somehow

when life seems to overwhelm; look into urself

Can you believe it

I started this drama in the morning

and I just finished it =)

Hahah, it's an old drama

and I never wanted to watch it

becos the cover looks really really bad

But, judging by it's front over is so wrong

cos it was a pretty good drama =)

and if you tink the main characters look gross, think again

tis is hot hot lee wan

and this is the main girl who looks really bad at the start.


Although exams are over,
I feel really stress but I don't know why
maybe I don't wanna think about anything
but things just keep clouding my mind

seems like when you finally thought you solve this problem
another problem arises
when would this ever stop?

So sick of it, really
but this time, it feels like I can't avoid it
or bury myself into my fantasy world.

-sigh-
I wish that I stop being so sensitive about the people around me
and look at the positive side instead
gosh, why can't my life be perfect?

am I being really ungrateful with what I have already?
maybe now that there's a slim chance that I can actually have what I want
that I become so greedy

but really, what do I want?
or maybe, what do I need?
cos that need would seem so much easier to accomplish

I want that can't-be-bothered feeling back, i tink
but at the same time, I don't wanna miss out on my chances.