Last x'mas, I gave you my heart

Went to Conservatory at Crown ytd nite
Everyone makes it sound as if it is like the best buffet on earth

But really, it was REALLY really crap
and it cost 61 bucks?

TAO's is WAY way better!
and NewQuay is a better buffet...

but whatever it is, it can never beat any buffets in SG

Now, I absolutely can't wait to go back to singapore to eat good food


Anw, I've been feeling crap since ytd
due to some stupid problem
but I am glad I had a good friend to turn to
cos I normally don't tell my deepest emotions...
but anw, it was the least expected friend you would tink who could actually helped me!
rofl, jkjk
but it was nice to get it off my chest xD
and know that I can rely on someone

so much for being strong, mish...

On a lighter note,
I serz can't wait for the end of the year to come
and I still can't get over the fact that I'm spending x'mas and new year HERE
what the heck was I tinking??

Not that it will be boring here in Au (everyone says so)
but it just that it's always really vibrant in singapore
and that's the only time when the whole extended family gets together
and when my friends and I go night-cycling (indeed, the highlights of my trip)

I wonder how it would be
1st time not spending x'mas in singapore

I can forsee...a lonely xmas ... ...

Man, you beautiful lil thing

I was bored sooo I decided to check up wat's new!

LG crystal =O

transparent keypad

OMOSH huh?
woah woah woah

Haha, rubber umbrella?

transparent toaster, hot

=OO
simply beautiful
but I don't know how it works xD

cute lil mini car =)


Wow, how random can I be?

Anw, tis morning, I told my dad I put education as my vtac preferences
and he was like.................... 0,o

bluhh bluhh

OMOSHHH!!
I finally put in my Vtac preference after such a long time!!
whheee, didn't really put much effort in it

"Ahh, sound good..watever, just put it in!"
=)

Sooo now I leave it to God's hand
sooo, wateva happens...happens

Btw, I put Secondary Education as my 3rd preference!
Wow, does mish really wants to be a teacher?
Hmmm, I don't know!!

Spent my morning in school ytd
for stupid french...
then went shopping with J during lunch

It was quite funny cos we went to David Jones
and I saw this top and it was 15 bucks
I was like WOah, it's hot and cheap
Then we return to look at it again
and it was 45 bucks xD
Then, we realise...the belt beside it was 15

I WANT MONEY
to buy dresses and shoes =)

Then spent my evening with A,C,F,N,P?
can't believe I....
-shall not mention-
=)

First week of holiday passed soooo quicky!!
Is everyone like w-t-h?
or isit just me...

terrible post with no meaning

yay, after so long
I managed to write a post in my other blog xD
Spiritual journey

Anw, my cousin and his fiancee just left for the airport today =(
-sigh- it's soo sad how visitors from SG come and go
I will see them soon, I suppose...

It's just that...
No more playing Wii till 2am >.<

Whenever there're visitors, I put on alot of weight =.=
hoow gayy but that also means that my dad won't cook
and I get good food to eat!
can't complain much, can I?

I'm really tired though I slept 11 hours ytd nite
maybe I am too used to having nap in the evening
sooo OPPS, I'm off to snooze =)

Happy post for the wider community

Thanks for the lovely concerned comments.
I'm really glad that I have such wonderful friends
who will always be there when I need them =)
Man, do I feel bless or what =)

But hahah, I'm perfectly fine xDD
wrote that emo post on an impulse
which was not all exactly in relation to me...

Soo anw, not to seem like an emogirl
Which I M SERZ NOTTT!
Let's post some LAMEE jokes that C showed me =)

Alrite, I only have one
cos if u tink this is lame
well, it's the cooliest ones out of what was available XD

I spent my whole day at the city
and if you think it was for fun
NOO
It was tsfx lectures -.-
but during the 3 hour break, we went shopping at bourke street =)

I'm soo exhausted cos I woke up at 6.30 today
ON A SCHOOL HOLIDAY
don't even do that when school starts!

Anw, I want a grad dress
and a muck-up costume

but you know what,
I actually cbs!
maybe I won't go
like alot of other ppls =X

What's EVERYONE wearing?

fallin' into the bottomless pit whose name is call LoVe

Man, spesh was 0.o
I only knew how to do 1 question from paper 1
-.-
I felt as if someone just stab me with a knife when I read the questions
actually, I wish someone did
so I didn't even have to endure that 1 hour of agony

What's a frking great way to end term 3
...


I've been feeling empty these few days
or perhaps, the pain has really numbed me.

Not only my sacs marks have been accelerating downwards,
all those mixed feelings are seriously back to hunt me down
It wouldn't go.
It wouldn't leave me alone.
I thought it was gone forever
that I have finally thought it through
that I could really *move on*
but no, it simply went on a holiday
and it is back specially to get me.

I'm still clueless
I'm not sure what are my feelings towards you.
but I do miss you, really
and it hurts to see you walking with ur special someone
but I guess I lost my chance
and I deserved it

~bluh bluh bluh
omoshh, u awoken up the Omo ~
random xD

Anw, the "discussion" about love and falling in love makes me just wanna blah about it


What's the difference from "I love you"
or "I'm in love with you"

Is there an evident contrast?
Do people merely say it when the moment "comes"
or does it really mean specific things

too be honest, I don't know
Feel free to share about it anw...

Anw, I was searching around and I found this
absolutely love it

Quote:

"Love isn't blind or deaf or dumb - in fact it sees far more than it will ever tell. It is going beyond yourself and stretching who you are for someone else. Being in love entails seeing someone as you wish they were: to love them is to see who they really are and still care for them. Love isn't bitter, but you can't have love without pain: sacrifice is the hallmark of love , the coin of love.

Being in love usually is used in a romantic sense when you meet your significant other transforming a normal relationship into a deeper one without further interest in others. Love means that you trust the person, would do anything for the person, know that person is with you through thick and thin, isn't afraid to be seen with you. make sure they treat you right."

What is love?


I guess when you're in love
you're blinded by everything around you
all you see is him/her
and everything is oblivious
your friends, family, and his flaws
Personally, I believed that when you fall in love,
you can't survive without the other
perhaps, being in love makes you strongheaded
that you're not willing to let go even if you know that the relationship ain't working


But loving someone is knowing that even though he/she has his/her flaws
and there'll be fights
you still accept that person regardless
To a certain extent, I believe that it is easier to let go
even though it would be painful

Becos loving someone means wanting them to find true happiness
and wishing them all the best
even if your relationship didn't work out

....

Sometimes, I find myself really foolish
maybe becos all I just want is for you to be happy
maybe if I left both of your lives completely,
then life would be easier for us.
definitely easier for me though.
so I don't have to put up that smiley face anymore,
acting like I don't care and that nothing's wrong
acting gracious and strong
becus I'm not.
it kills me on the inside
to know your heart belongs to someone else already

Maybe you should start being really cold to me
so I can fall into that bottomless pit
and slowly make my way back up, myself

Ha. "move on", "let go"
doesn't these words sound soo familiar?
Yea, we get the meaning...
but does that mean we can do it?

sound so darn easy for me to say.

When you're hurt and losing control of yourself
do you wanna get rid of those past and memories?
do you change?

Maybe.
Maybe it's for the best or for the worst
but it doesn't matter what other people say
It all comes down to you.
yourself.
Are you happy with the way you're?
If you're changing just to spike someone
Haha, I think you're the dumbest person on Earth
(which also means I'm too xD)
It's not worth it to change for someone and then, hate the way you are
because on the other end your world,
No one cares and wouldn't even suffer the slightest amount of guilt

Hah, I find myself really stupid right now.

Man, this is one lengthy post.

Po-nyo Po-nyo Ponyo

AHhHHHH, charlie 3




English version:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lfjww2cA2FE&feature=channel

Jap version:



Why doesn't the english version have the JAP SONG!!
I rmb the first time Ponyo came out in Sg
and the song was SOOO COOL!!
Po-nyo Po-nyo Ponyo

U gotta listen it from the jap trailer!





Wheee, not ready for my sacs
but 2 more to go!!!
can't wait for holidays

hmmm, year 12 is...gay
0.o
I ate it with silent H

Swoop.

It was my dad's b'dae ytd
and we went to the besssttttt restaurant ytd
Tao's Restaurant
Omosh, it is simply indescribable
I wanna work there!! =X

The service was awesome.
The food was sooo good.
The decoration and cutlery was like =OO
sooo pretty...
Man, if I am rich
I will eat there everyday!!




Anw, today I had to walk to my tuition which is at burwood
It took me 45 mins
and to make it worst
I was "attacked" by some bird
who kept swooping down on me
It was soooooo freaky
so the whole time, I looked like a loser putting my hands above my head

The whole way back, I was soo paranoid whenever I saw them from my peripheral vision

Anw, I decided to do some research
and apparently, it is Swooping Season!!
so beware guys...

I don't think I wanna walk to school...

article:

Be Aware, Swooping season is back


TOday, I packed my room
and re-arrange some stuff
ooh, did I mention my new bed arrived ytd?
Ahhh, life's good
and stuff uuu for those [mj] who have a massive bed
I mean why do you need a huge bed in the first place when it's just lonely you
Wahhaha.

angry little girls.

I was reading the lil book which C gave to me for b'dae
which was, I tink, chosen by F?

well anyway, I found it hilarious so I decided to share some with you guys
which I found from the website!

I actually think I was meant to blog something
but obviously, I was distracted xD

imagine.

Imagine if I didn't meet you
and we cross each other's path without even realising
Imagine if you didn't say hi
and broke the wall between us
Imagine if I didn't fall in love with you
then maybe today, I'll be living a life without sorrows and misery

Imagine, nothing but a word with no real meaning
becos I can't help but imagine what my life would be
if you didn't walk out that door without a word

Eyes.....closing....soon ZzzZzz

Man, I think I m getting sick soon
Bad bad time to get ill...
My head feel mighty heavy
still stressing about english
which I got no idea how to write...

-Tired-

that's all I can say for today.

Fear of what it would turn me into

I had lunch with dad today
and it was good
apart from the fact that I dropped my phone on to the gravel road
sooo yay...It's not working now
and I can't transfer my card to another mobile
because stupid 3 locked it

so now, I'm officially phoneless...
to think that this day will ever come,
seeing that I have 2 unused phone on my bedside table
and my other phone with my aunty

For some reason though, I don't feel like going all the way to fix it
maybe I'm starting to like the idea
that I cannot be contacted...

Somehow, I felt really tired today for no particular reason
and in the end, I had a 3 hour nap
which didn't really energise me as much as I though it would...

I'm actually starting to feel the pressure
I don't feel a single bit ready for my english and french sac this week
neither am I prepared for spesh n chem next week

but I guess it would be a relief for me
After these 4 Sacs, I'm done with it for school
and be expecting in fear for the exams

that would, perhaps to a certain extent, determine my future.
which I seriously have no clue about.

My future seems so vague to me
I haven't thought about the courses I want to go into
Neither have I considered what I really like.

I don't noe.
Maybe I don't have a special fondness for something
Maybe I just haven't found it yet.

Alot of people think that changing courses in uni or not deciding what they want to be
is a form of weakness and simply a waste of time

I used to think that way to.
Until I realised it for myself, that it could be so difficult to decide on something
that would change the course of your life so easily
that sometimes, we become so hesitant.

All in all, I guess I am hesitant not because of the nature of the choices I have
but because I fear what the choices would turn me into.

Those memories running through my head is ruining my soul

I didn't have the best day on earth
-besides, the lil tricks in my frees-
nor did I have the best yesterday night on earth

But I guess the best thing today was having maxbrenner with Doo
who has such creative mind, it sometimes scares me xD
but I really liked his ideas
sooo while having cookieshake, we were simply brainstorming on sketchie =)
I like it when people appreciate my ideas
deep down.
so, I will be working on my lil project from now =)

On a gloomy note,
I guess you could say that I'm the most petty person on earth
I love to hold onto grudges
and hate to admit that I'm wrong
I get annoyed and irritated easily
but wouldn't be gutsy enough to tell you what's wrong
because of the "politeness-gene hostage" thingy( i tink that's what Meryl said?)

But sometimes, I can blow up and give you that evil stare
you wish you never met my eyes =)
Or perhaps, my cold attitude could give you shudders

Hehe, yeaaa that's me...

I couldn't sleep ytd nite
soo I went through my old smses
but maybe it wasn't the best idea afterall
I thought of soo many thing
It seems like I m re-living that past
but now in fear and isolation..
perhaps you will never understand
but you hurt me the most
maybe if you knew, you probably even smirk
but it doesn't matter no more,
as long as I know that I am answerable to myself
that I m living a life worth living
and ain't dragging the past down with me

If only memories were pencil smudges on a piece of paper
then, it would be soo easy to erase

Day by day, life is getting more beautiful ain't it...

I seriously don't think anyone really understand me deep down and inside out
besides Him.
He knows my name even before I was born
He knows my hurts and sorrows even before I cry out to Him
He mends a broken heart and heals the wound
He is my Almighty Saviour, Jesus Christ.

doggiesss

J just showed me this
cracks me up xD

but evil at the same time
barbaric human entertainment

Just another day of life...

I came back home
and I found out my msn was gone!!
I asked my dad if he deleted it
and he said no.

but guess what, I found it in the trash can =O
ooh, I meant recycled bin xD
so I managed to restore it
wahahha...

I woke up latelate today
and had a sorethroat 0.o
n I forgotten my buttermentols =.=
but but, P was so nice and got me vicks
just what I needed
wahaha, how sweet

The girls had discussion about schoolies!
and I absolutely cannot wait
though the idea of camping do actually freak me out a lil...

I think my mum booked the flight back to SG already

I am going to have a makeover for my uni life! (that's if i get into one)
regardless whether it's looks or personality
(comtemplating plastic surgery NOT)
that's right...it will be a new mish *stare*

I highly doubt that actually...
but the idea of starting a whole new fresh delights me

I ain't superwoman; my world is as delicate as yours

I wish someone provoked me
so I am able to write on this blog...
and vent some anger

but nope!
It's either people are extremely nice these days
or maybe, I'm more tolerant =)

I like the second point I made
and I tink it makes more sense...
I mean, who can be bothered being nice these days anyway...

I can't.

I should though.
I should be more caring
I should learn to understand others
I should really be compassionate and nice
I should be more interested and concern for others
I should put myself in others' shoes and see from their view

but sometimes, I just lost that energy
I feel so emotionally drained-out
I don't wanna care anymore
It's not like I'm strong or anything, you know

I just a girl, still searching for who I really am
still searching for a future
got enough load on my hands

Upon saying these, I don't think I can ever just leave my goodfs/bestf in a lurch
if their world fall apart..
It would simply break me into pieces

But at the same time, I ain't superwoman
and if there're nothing else I can do...
what else do you expect of me?

Hmmm, I m clueless

beautifully made

I'm starvvvvinggg!!!
tho I had a massive lunch...

Anw, check this out *wink*

Forever New collections
one word : Hot
vv oriental

They're all sooo pretty man
I WISH I AM RICH

Anw, went to pancake parlour for lunch and then max brenner!!
omosh, getting fatter...

but anw, we tried on shoes too
and I really like...


cos it so adorable =)
Alrite...maybe not pink
how about Black yeah?

Simply sweet (feel like lickin' it..)



Why didn't I see this in the shop!!
it's sooo cool!

Blow a bubble in my face and pop it; you annoying lil...

I wish I had some artsyfartsy talents
and be pro at photoshop 0.o
dammn, unfortunately I'm not

Anw, J showed me this:

Doesn't it look sooo wow =O
I wanna be creative, sometimes....


Topshop

forever21

Anw, I wanna cut my hair or change my looks
but I'm waiting for my hair to grow
and I absolutely hate that process
because it's neither here now there

I wanna either cut a full fringe

OR

this this!! =)

but that means OMOSH, wait for fringe now to grow =.=
prob take like 6 months?
I got no idea....


Annoying life I have here! =)
whhheEeEEeee...