Quotes. compression of feelings

I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.

E. B. White

Life is a dream for the wise, a game for the fool, a comedy for the rich, a tragedy for the poor.

Sholom Aleichem

Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense.

Helen Rowland

Can't believe I have to listen to freaking relaxing music.

Ahhh, I really want to run away.
hide smwhere.
and close my eyes and feel the peace
perhaps leave for somewhere else
away from what I'm trying to run away from.

sweeet

Sweeet sweet sweet.
Life is too good to stress about anything right?

I love this CBS feeling!
it's making me real happy.
but somehow, I know it wouldn't last!

At least, I'm just living in this moment! :)

love this quote i heard

Don't let someone fall for you
if you're not planning to catch them.
J.gay left last sunday and it's soo sad cos I'm already missing all the fun when he's here
I wonder what's your thoughts on long distance friendship or some sort.

I never realise how it feels to have a friend overseas or waiting for a friend who's overseas
becos I was the one who left sg behind.
but it's amazing becos my friendship with my sg friends actually became stronger.
I hope that's the same for JG.

Today, I hang with jo for the second time of the year lol
and only one word to describe it
awesome.
she's sooo amazing :)

can't wait for holidays to come soon!!

會呼吸的痛;別再為他流淚

Hang out with dooey 3 days ago.
watched BOY - NZ movie at know eurofilms
was pretty cool movie and I actually liked it!
still loving our d&ms over dinner :)


Hangout with J.gay and P.C two days ago
It's so sad J is leaving for america for good.
man, I will miss J ..... for doing my assignments for me :(

Do you ever wonder to yourself
Why do you put yourself through certain situations?
when it's so painful and sad.
when you cry over stupid things?

Then you asked yourself the last question,
"Is this worth it?"

but you will never know the answer.

Charlie teh unicron

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If I gave you 2 choices;

Yes yes yes.
Haven't been blogging again.
and I feel insecure ranting on this blog sometimes.


There're exciting things that are happening
and of course, things that aren't going very well.
But that's life I suppose :)


you know Humans are funny creatures.
They can change really fast.
adapt into a new environment really quickly too.
I'm amazed and I applaud for such ability.
but sometimes I wonder whether it's a good thing?
whether it's for the best.




Imagine this.
You're living a wonderful life.
You have everything you need.
and perhaps you have a gf/bf/or bestf
things are going really smoothly right now.


I guess the best description is that:
you're very happy with your life right nowbut you know that as time goes on though,
things will slowly deteriorate.
your relationship will not last and it will end up really badly.


So today,
I give you 2 choices in life.


you can choose to leave that person
and know that these happiest memories will be what that holds you together.
you will never know the end.
but at least you know you had the greatest beginning.


Or


you can continue to leave things the way they are
and then when things aren't going right,
when you start seeing things at different ends and conflict arises.
perhaps by then, the only thing that will occupy your life
is regrets? or hatred?
that you will never be able to reconcile that relationship forever.






I don't know which choice is for the best.
but they aren't perfect anyway.
If you're smart though
you can tell which side I'm more inclined to.


but that doesn't mean I will choose that route.
It's just sound better.
leaves you to recreate/fantasize the end of your destiny.

The way it has become

I hate this part of life.
I don't even know how I ended up here.
I thought I learned my mistakes.
Yet, I fell so deep again.


I will never forget the happy times we've been through.
how you can make me feel like the happiest person alive.
but we will never be able to withstand hardship nor pain.
Maybe this is how shallow and surface this whole thing has become.


I don't know whether I am capable to survive this blow.

Agape Love; Love God Love People

This week has been one crazy week for me.
I went to Mt buller for 2 days!
it's great meeting your highschool friends again and going on a short trip :)


getting busy everyday.
and my highlight is attending Empower.
a church conference held at Grace's


It's one of those time when you feel a transformation.
or perhaps, more like a wake up call.
that you haven't been living life straight.
or the way you said you always wanted.
it happens becos so often what we say, we don't preach.
and from the contribution of what the world throws at us.


I rmb struggling alot in highschool
where I couldn't really see the meaning of VCE
the reason why people put such high expectations on it,
deeming it as the only thing that will give you a future.


I was practically torned apart.
but now, my feelings are somewhat a little different,
evolving from the same concept though.


This year, it has been a relatively crazy 1st semester.
Ups and Downs.
especially my emotional state.
so unpredictable


I admit that I haven't been the life this year the way I said I wanted to.
and there's nothing else to say
besides feeling that guilt.
besides disappointing myself.


But then again,
I've gained so much this year.
I learned so many things that I would have never in a lifetime.
I guess ultimately, I learned the meaning of what it means to like someone.
the dire state that we are all in.
and the desire to bring hope to everyone.


and for the past few weeks,
I have struggled with that.
I let all the emotions overwhelm me that I forgot who I really was.
who I really wanted to be.
wasting my time over the silliest thing ever.


but you know what,
it's never too late.
now, the focal of life has been back in perspective.
and I hope I will never lose it again.
I hope I will hold on to this promise.


The first message I receive from the conference was about:


Agape Love

"Agape is love which is of and from God, whose very nature is love itself"

"The essence of agape love is self-sacrifice"

"He loves the unlovable and the unlovely (us!), not because we deserve to be loved, but because it is His nature to do so, and He must be true to His nature and character"
(to read the full article, visit Agapelove)


How wonderful is that?
Do you really understand the meaning of love?


even I don't understand the full meaning of it.
but I'm sure that you will never know the fullest of it till you understand God's love.
His love is the Ultimate.I want to devote myself to love God and love People again.
Big statement. but hopefully achievable.




Sometimes, I wonder where has that old mish been?

Day by day

Ahhh, I'm sick now

actually, I don't know how serious this is

but I have a massive headache and sorethroat xD

I watched toy story 3 ytd!
mygosh, the sweetest movie ever!
I wonder if my toys were really alive
would they be that loyal :)

I made a few important decisions in my life lately.
not sure if they're for the best.
but somehow and somewhat,
I feel content and excited about it.
it's like finding a treasure box, I suppose.

and on a exciting news,
I passed QM!!
so yayyers, no repeat next sem for QM
but I m not sure about psych yet!

and if you guys could do me a favour!
tell me if I shld do Maths or Psych for next sem

I'm not sure if it's becos I m sick right now
that I get so edgy about certain things.
Too much thinking going through my head.
and feeling annoyed.

I guess ultimately,
I'm the only one who will need to face my own conscience.